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2012-02-01T20:26:00.002+08:00

Hello world, been neglecting this blog again... My 22nd birthday and chinese new year are over. And coming up soon, Valentine day. I am so not looking forward to V day, counting down to no. 22 lonely valentine day. Wonder how does it feel like to go out for a dinner on valentine day, exchanging gifts, receiving flowers... hmmm...

I guess my 22nd birthday is the happiest birthday party I ever had, no need to plan about location, number of guests turning up, foods, neither am I spending it alone, feel so damn relax having simple picnic with classmates and dinner with girlfriends. It feels so much better than hosting a birthday party myself.

Anyway gonna try apply NTU and NUS Civil Engineering again this year, I am still very into civil engineering. Everytime when I walk pass construction site, I will have 'sour' feelings, getting oh-so-emo that I wouldnt have the chance to walk around the contruction site wth my white helmet, planning and calculating the structures, gantt chart, preparing method statements. If I can get a degree in Civil Engineering field, if I can be a certified professional engineer, if can introduce solar glass to Singapore, if I am able to help out to build disaster relief home, if I am able to design and build a house and home for my future family, if only.....

Being feeling emo these few days, I dont know why too, but many things and problems just kept running through my minds as if it is running 24/7 and that 'sour' feeling just keep coming back to me out of nothing. I am getting tired, mentally. If I can lie on my bed for a day and disconnect from the world with nothing running through my little mind.

Friday 3/2/2011 630pm Black building with blue lights

My coming 22nd birthday wish list

2011-12-22T15:34:00.006+08:00

1. Leather camera bag

2. Van Cleef & Arpels watch...
HAHAHAS this one sure all my friends around my age cannot afford one, their cheapest watch cost around 11K. Gonna get one when I start working and earning big bucks.

3. Samantha Vega Flora bag

4. Samantha Vega wallet (Girlfriends are getting this for me) $300+

PS: Girlfriends, no ugly hot pink, no black, no red but baby colours PLEASE!

5. Loewe bag (Same design and colour) 3K+

Again, it is too expensive for people of my age to afford

6. Babypink daisy!

7. Escada Taj Sunset summer perfume $100+

8. Sugarbaby tinted lipbalm

The last time I saw this was in 2006, cost around $30+. At 16, it was too much for me to buy a $30+ lipbalm, but it was the best lipbalm I ever tried before. Sad to say I couldnt find it in Singapore anymore.. =( It was a sister brand of Pupa.

9. Chanel Pearl ear studs $320+

10. Olympus EPL-1 half leather pouch with strap $132

11. Sinking pillow which were commonly found in hotels

Bintan trip with classmates on NOV 2011

2011-12-22T14:12:00.006+08:00

Photos taken during Bintan trip with my classmates!

Cyrena and me

My girl: LucazPiggyback BenChewMyNipples

Buddha jump!

Night shot, the night when we lay down on the beach, enjoy star gazing and shooting stars!

Morning walk @ Beach

Xia Lan Pa Jiao Group

Ah-Du-Geng (Ryan from X-men)

Looking at Lucaz expression when I am dry shampoo-ing his hair

After a long day out. Zzz

Morning walk @ Beach

Leg lock Lucaz

Lifted up by BenChewMyDick

Front flip!

Cooking mushroom soup

Our first meal in Bintan: Say Grace

Long long update

2011-12-22T10:34:00.010+08:00

Hello earthlings! I am here to update about my life again. Did I mention that i lost my olympus waterproof camera in club (Butter factory) recently? =( And yea, I was quite upset about it. Then I worked for Sitex, and bought a new camera and lap top there. Here's a picture of my new camera, Olympus pen EPL-1... I got it at SGD458 if I never remember wrongly. Cheap steal right?! Retail is selling at $998 and SimLim is selling at 1k+...

Booked Grand Copthorne hotel on a Saturday. The day when people were getting ready, going for ZoukOut, we were in the hotel drinking, playing uno stacko, strip poker, hide and side, blind mice, etc....

HIDE AND SEEK:

Vivi was having a hard time looking for Kangwei when we were playing hide and seek, and this is where he hide in.

Jack daniel, Henessy, some nice orange flavoured alcohol, long flat mascato wine

Anson (predator) staring at Kangwei (prey)

BEFORE THE START OF STRIP POKER:

Kang wei the pregnant woman

Anson the glowy dick monster

Cookie monster with my jeans short

Me - Bikini bottom, bra, 3 panty liner hidden under my bra, sunglasses, towel, robe, etc

AND when the BLIND MICE game starts:

The legendary 6 legged monster

PARTIES after exam with classmates, girlfriends and norton peeps~

Bacardi 151!!!!

Geylang 1 night eating tour with classmates and norton peeps:

Drinking session at 5 bar

Teoheng singing session with the norton peeps and check out my newly bought clip on extension!

Beautiful Kangwei with my clip on extensions

Clip on fringe ONLY

Qian hu fish spa: The cute little fishes which nibble with our feets. HAHAHAS it's my first time going for fish spa and I was practically scream, 'OMG, WTF' for the first half an hour at least before I start enjoying the fish spa as it is too ticklish and I am afraid that if I make big movement, I will kill those cute little fishes.

Bigger fish, bigger sensation~

CUTE right?! The 'attention seeking fish' which kept facing the camera and opening it's mouth in this :3 manner.

Cute little fishes attacking! !@#$%^&*()_+

PLAY NATION with norton peeps:

The boxing king

The volleyball king

Me and Vivi

Little wishes

2011-11-18T14:33:00.001+08:00

It's 9:41pm Bintan time now and I am lying here on the beach chair enjoying with the blanket of stars above me. Saw 2 shooting stars, made one wish for myself and one for the best person I met. Next wish will be wishing to enjoy such moment again with someone special .... hopefully. How I wish I could capture such beautiful moment.

It's 10:05pm Bintan time now and I just saw the 3rd shooting star. Well, did I mention before whatever I wished under the shooting stars will not come true and worst still it oppose?

2011-11-14T01:44:00.001+08:00

They filled part of the empty space up. Am I wrong?

Like a weed

2011-11-03T13:08:00.001+08:00

Dump me like a dirt as you wish, since I am so used to it and I am going to get used to it.

2011-10-29T00:42:00.001+08:00

This is the first time I am praying hard to PASS a paper instead of scoring it. I wish marketing can be as fun as civil engineering.

It just kept me thinking

2011-10-28T11:51:00.002+08:00

Ok just a random thought from what happened approximately a weeks ago. If you have a friend who told you that she is trying to help you by voicing out your views (secret between you and her) to another party involved and then don't know why spread to 3rd parties etc. Then you caught her whatsapps another party with another party commenting negatively on you regarding this matter. She then quickly hide her phone when she noticed that you are looking. And then she suddenly call you to ask you do you have thing unhappy about her when you posted something on Facebook, how will you react? Aye it just suddenly pop up in my mind when I am lying on my bed doing nothing. But wouldn't you think she is trying hmmm 看你的好戏? Anyway it's just so petty girls matter (I am one). I don't expect to have any true friend, except for my 4 girlfriends which is more than enough. 没希望就没失望 isn't it? Well, sometimes I really think alot especially when I 吃饱没事做.

Glad you came

2011-10-26T17:51:00.001+08:00

The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I’m glad you came

You cast a spell on me, spell on me
You hit me like the sky fell on me, fell on me
And I decided you look well on me, well on me
So let’s go somewhere no-one else can see, you and me

Turn the lights out now
Now I’ll take you by the hand
Hand you another drink
Drink it if you can
Can you spend a little time,
Time is slipping away from us so stay,
Stay with me I can make,
Make you glad you came

The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I’m glad you came
I’m glad you came

http://www.hotnewsonglyrics.com/the-wanted-glad-you-came-lyrics.html

You cast a spell on me, spell on me
You hit me like the sky fell on me, fell on me
And I decided you look well on me, well on me
So let’s go somewhere no-one else can see, you and me

Turn the lights out now
Now I’ll take you by the hand
Hand you another drink
Drink it if you can
Can you spend a little time,
Time is slipping away from us so stay,
Stay with me I can make,
Make you glad you came

The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I’m glad you came
I’m glad you came

I’m glad you came
So glad you came
I’m glad you came
I’m glad you came

The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I’m glad you came
I’m glad you came

(One of my favourite song in my ipod)

2011-10-26T04:02:00.001+08:00

I hate feeling it this way, but I have to get used to me.

2011-10-21T15:00:00.001+08:00

Life is hard and I m struggling to complete my revision. 24 hours a day doesn't seems to be enough for me to sleep eat shit bath n study

2011-10-19T14:09:00.001+08:00

I saw an empty seat at coffee bean with a newspaper on it, thinking that someone must have left it behind hence I throw it onto the chair beside but slide to the floor (flick boggies style). Then one man came to me,'eh I sit here one, thats my newspaper n don't know why u throw my newspaper away but nvm I sit elsewhere then'. Omg so embarrassed.

2011-10-15T16:18:00.001+08:00

If I can appear to be this beautiful..... :)

Whatapps Joke

2011-10-14T06:22:00.001+08:00

Me: Intro u 3 chio bu (the 3 cute goose sisters)
My friend (identity protected): My dream girl ( the woman in green)

I loves wedding

2011-10-14T06:11:00.001+08:00

Hello people, I am back blogging from my iPhone. Yeah, attended xiuhui's wedding celebration on last Saturday and it was quite enjoyable. Made the 'brothers' to eat banana without using hand and with red lipstick on from the private area of another 'brother', waxed their leg hair to form a 'I love you' picture. Poked a chopstick into their butt crack and make them pass rubber bands from mouth to the chopstick struck between the butt crack and many more. And yes, I got the flower when the bride threw it, I was telling the 'sisters' that I gonna slam dunk their head if they will fight over the flower with me lol. Guess what? The bride and groom went clubbing right after wedding dinner. Damn havoc.

~

2011-10-06T20:15:00.002+08:00

一直不停的提醒自己我不可以习惯拥有太多幸福的世界，因为。。。有一天，这些美好的事情都会消失，留下的只有痛苦和遗憾。这是我第二次放你鸽子，有点不忍，有点过意不去，有点不舍得。但我知道这会慢慢的让你离开我的世界，避免我又掉入陷阱。可是当我在做这些事的时候，心里却没有酸酸的感觉。。。我好像已经开始习惯一个人了，开始变得自私了。

I feel so happy as if I m on drugs now

2011-10-04T21:16:00.001+08:00

:) :(

2011-10-02T18:20:00.001+08:00

Life is a little sweet, a little bitter, busy busy, tired tired and lonely lonely. Awhile happy like a donkey, awhile upset like a slug. Sometimes I just wonder what you are having in your mind? You are warm at this moment, cold at the very next moment. I know i need to restrict myself from all these before i couldn't. Oh well, I better not think any further and concentrate on my coming exams. Anyway I still enjoy my uni life very much, just submitted all my projects and assignments few days back, summer bash party at zouk on Thursday ( was kinda tipsy as I hasn't being taking in alcohol for almost 3 years. Had flaming Lamborghini, gin tonic, vodka lime, moet chandon, beer etc and I was almost gone), jb with classmates on Saturday evening till Sunday morning. So now, I am ready for the battle, one more month to major exam!

2011-09-23T16:55:00.001+08:00

I am in a really terrible mood now, wanted to cry out loud yet don't dare to utter out a single sound nor drop. At this age, crying doesn't gain sympathy but mockery, so I am always holding back and back again. Maybe I am too sensitive or what, but what does it mean when somebody laughed and say 'good' when you were being put down? Obvious isn't it? Does the problem lies with me? What makes you detest me much that you have to show me that expression? I hate myself for being so sensitive and observant at times

Blog hopping

2011-09-21T09:46:00.001+08:00

She must be heartbroken, because when I read through her entries, I can feel her pain, like so extreme.

Bits

2011-09-18T10:25:00.001+08:00

Somehow I really hate waking up from nightmares especially dreams like I was abandoned, all alone, again and again. It is my greatest fear and I always thought that by distancing myself it will at least make me feel less painful when I lost everything one day since I must have already gotten use to it. But I guess I was wrong, i still can't get rid of any bit of my fear.

Update on my uni life

2011-09-09T14:13:00.001+08:00

Seriously, I am struggling in my course. :( Just had accounting test paper and it turned out to be very hard, even harder than any other tutorials etc that I had. In uni, working hard doesn't help much :(

Anyway I have really nice and great classmates. They were all very 'happening' and we will be having a 'study chalet' soon.

FML

2011-08-19T21:21:00.000+08:00

The feeling sucks like shit. Seriously. Instead of getting angry, I got really upset. I am very affected by it, very. Imagine after broke up for 2 years, he suddenly call. His motive is just to find a pair of listening ears, because he broke up with his current girlfriend. He told me that he wasn’t serious with me in the past. He told me that to him, he see me as a fling instead. He told me that he got to know the 3rd girl who is his current gf between the period before we got together to few days after we got together. It stings. So much of putting in my feelings, he even questioned me, ‘you will feel hurt mehx?’ What a fucked up question.

After talking to girlfriends, I sort of feel abit better. Then, something happened again.

I feel so stupid, so foolish, so idiotic to have help them with their passport renewal. And now, straight away they got their passport, they went to buy air tickets secretly, planning to fly off without me. They planning to sell off the apartment to buy a one room studio apartment and ask me to fuck off.

Why is it that I am always the one who initial help to fuck myself? Why is it? Why is it that they are always trying to shake me off? Always wanna abandon me? Why does everyone abandons me? What exactly have I done wrong to deserve all these?

Why is my life so fucked up? Why is my life so dramatic? Why does all the bad things befall on me?

I fucking hate this kinda feelings!!!!

A little update on my uni life

2011-08-09T12:45:00.006+08:00

Life is kinda too lucky for me now. Somehow, I am not used to it. Or should I say, nothing 'good' in my life will last, so, I shouldnt let myself get used to all these which are happening now as it will be gone very very soon.

Sooooo.. Let's start from my school first.

I went for the orientation camp, made a lot of nice friends, and my group is very bonded. We played the 3am game (truth or dare) together during the camp, we went for lunch together after break camp, we meet for lunch and dinner for the 1st week of school, we sit together during lectures, we went clubbing together and everything. There were a few capricorns in my group (Capricorns are usually very hardworking and chiong very hard for projects), the girls were nice and hardworking, and the guys were gentlemen and funny too. YEAH and we have this common thing together which is .... we crack yellow jokes. I believed most of the girls out there wouldnt be able to take it, like most of the time they will comment like, 'EEE very disgusting, can stop or not?'. So yea, I am lucky that my group mates are not those 'eee eee' type of people.

As for another matter, I shall not say it out here. Trying hard not to get used to it and I am sort of scaring 'him' away. Soon or later, my life will be as peaceful and quiet as before. Different people from different world and of different frequencies can never click well, moreover with a girl like me who does all the weird things etc.

My age is catching up on me =(

2011-08-08T15:18:00.002+08:00

I always love festivals like chinese new year, christmas, national day, moon cake festival etc as I thought I will be able to celebrate and count down with my friends. But sad to say, as my age is catching up on me, I will only get to stand at a corner and look at how others enjoy or probably stay at home and sleep early. =(

Oh no, something is wrong with me =(

2011-07-23T01:01:00.007+08:00

Does anyone experience this before?

You will feel like puking when the opposite sex talk to you or come near you (I mean some only).

I dont know why, but it has been very long since I last feel this way.

Category 1

I still remember when I was much younger like in primary school, when my classmates paired me up with an indian boy, saying that we were girl/boyfriend, I started crying and got so angry that I used a pencil to poke the indian boy's arm.

There was also one incident when people were like pairing me up with this guy (W) and I ended up scolding him, spitting saliva onto his face, fighting with him, throwing things at him just to make him go away, and stay far away from me.

Then... Like one year plus back, I was quite close with this friend of mine, let's name him R. I was quite comfortable with him as a friend, gambling, going out together for supper etc, until one day... I realised that he has feelings for me. There was once he meet me at the corridor to pass me some food (I was too busy with revision that I forgot to eat) and when he wanna hug me, I threw something onto the floor and squat down immediately (siam the hug) and act like I am trying to pick up my stuff. From then on, I start avoiding him till like he has no feelings for me anymore then I stop.

I dont know how to say, but once I sense something wrong e.g. the guy have feelings for me, I will feel disgusted and I will purposely do things like giving away/ exchange the stuff that the person bought for me with someone else, avoiding that personscare the person away, etc.

AND when I say that I feel like puking, I really mean that I felt that something is pushing out of my throat. Sometimes, I feel like crying, feel like running away etc.

Category 2

It's not only when people pair me up with others and when I know that person like me I will have such feelings. I also have such feelings towards guys who are like loser, cannot admit that he was defeated, guys who bomb (w/o using brain) and talk loudly in the public trying hard to seek for attention, guys who are dirty like never bath, bad breath, guys who speak to me in a very tehn (撒娇) manner, guys who try to act like an ah beng infront of everyone, guys who talk nonsense, tiko guys and many more.

I wonder is this normal? Does anyone of you feel like this before? Or only me?

Recently, there was this guy whom I get really very uncomfortable with (he belongs to the category 2) that I feel so embarassed just by standing beside him and I wanted to dig a hole and hide my head in. I feel like pushing him away, not talking to him, angry, wanna cry (yet cannot cry out nor express my unhappiness as I felt that I owe him something) and puking when he start his nonsense e.g. Showing off, talking big infront of everyone and many more.

I dont know what's wrong with that 'puking' reaction, can anyone tell me what's wrong with me? The 'wanna puke' reaction is getting more and more frequent, sometimes I even have such feelings for a stranger. Is it because the guys whom I've met recently are all very disgusting, or something is wrong with me?

BUT luckily I dont have such feelings for my sec and poly classmates.

Maybe I am thinking too much, but sometimes I wonder why dont I have the same puking feelings when I bump into girls who talk big etc? Why is it only when it comes to the guys, I feel so disgusted?

2011-07-12T01:06:00.003+08:00

I've locked up my facebook info, pictures and everything. Well, I guess this is the best way out, best way for me to 'throw away' my past and start my life afresh. At the same time, I can still view those pictures myself, reminiscing the happy events that happened in my life. One of the reasons why I am doing so is because I wanna cut contact.

Like what my friends always tell me, ''You are always attracting the wrong type of people to you''. True enough, I can say that out of all my friends, I can only trust like 1% of it, 50% are the nice and ok one, 40% were the scheming ones with evil plots in their mind and the rest of the 9% are those whom I not really close to one. Well, it's time to 'siam' the 40% of them since I dont know when I will be their next prey and to try and cut off contact with them.

Well, it has been very long since I last updated my blog, so pardon me for blogging everything which seems to have no link to one another all in this post.

1. I am still asking myself whether the course which I registered for (Marketing at SIM-RMIT) is really what I want?

I was browsing through the web these few days and come across a few university. One of it is Curtin College which also have a campus in Singapore and Sarawak. For the campus in Singapore, it offers double majors in Marketing and Advertising which is close to what I want. My initially plan of taking up marketing (after I learnt that I couldnt make it to a local university for civil engineering) it because that I might get a chance to work in the advertising line, like coming up with ideas for tv advertisement etc, hence a degree with advertising sounds better. Moreover, for poly student with irrelevant diploma, it only take 1 year 4 months to complete the course. Somehow, I felt that RMIT structure is kinda waste of time, like WTF, 3 modules in 1 semester? Back in poly we did like 8 modules in 1 semester. With that little amount of modules, I guess if I am allow to register like how many modules to per semester etc, I can complete it in a year time. The course structure seems to be too 'slack' for me.

Ok now, let's talk about what really interest me.
a. Civil Engineering @ Curtin Sarawak
b. Geology @ Curtin Sarawak

Civil Engineering is what I am always pursuing for to fulfil my dream to build relief houses in disaster relief area, to build my dream house, to design and build some significant. I always thought that it is a very good and meaningful career path. In times of trouble, I can build shelters for everyone. When I am old and retired, I can migrate overseas and build a farmhouse of my own. How sweet and wonderful is it when you can build a house and stay in it with your love ones?

As for Geology, I've always wanted to be a geologist ever since I was still in secondary school as Geography is one of my favourite subject. How great is it if I am able to like participate in the field of work like earthquake, volcano eruption, sudden change of climate, natural disaster etc?

Put it in a simple term, I am one who will go for basic + commission salary instead of just getting a standard sum of basic salary every month. I am one who will go for jobs which I am able to perform and gain recognition instead of just doing the same mundane work everyday. In another words, I am dying to perform, to outshine the rest and to gain recognition.

However, there were several factors which cause me to ponder for very long.

a. Application is very troublesome.. e.g. Student pass, accomodation etc.
b. Geology has a few chemistry modules (I am very very weak in chemistry back in secondary school. I struggled like hell to get a C5 pass.)
c. Communication
d. It is very troublesome to like back off from SIM now (send in email, get back refund etc)
e. It is in MALAYSIA!!!!

What should I do?

阿娣's ending song

2011-07-02T10:41:00.001+08:00

对我好对我好好到无路可退
可是我也很想有个人陪
才不愿把你得罪于是那么迂回
一时进一时退保持安全范围
这个阴谋让我好惭愧
享受被爱滋味却不让你想入非非

就让我们虚伪
有感情别浪费
不能相爱的一对
亲爱像两兄妹
爱让我们虚伪
我得到于事无补的安慰
你也得到模仿爱上一个人的机会
残忍也不是慈悲
这样的关系你说多完美

眼看你看著我看得那么暧昧
被爱爱人原来一样可悲
为什么竟然防备别人给我献媚
不能推不能要要了怕你误会
让我想起曾经爱过谁
我所要的她不给好像小偷一样卑微

=)

2011-06-10T20:20:00.003+08:00

I've found a course which I really like and wanted to go for. This is the last chance for me to realise my dream. Hopefully can get through!

我那‘打不死的蟑螂’的意念就要被现实给吞噬掉了。。。
加油！加油！韩佩伶！你一定可以办到的！

My poly life

2011-06-07T14:41:00.002+08:00

Looking back to my poly life, I guess I have a great one and knowing a lot of nice people along these 3 years. Hmmm let me think….

Year 1 dragonboat orientation camp

I got to know a few friends there like Jieying, Alex, Jeremy and a lot. Till now, I am still in contact with Alex. Couldn’t stop laughing when I look back at what we did during the truth or dare game in the middle of the night (The captain was brushing his teeth halfway while he stroll pass us and gave that 0.o look), the guys helping me to climb to business block level 2 red rooftop and we hide there during the iceman game, Xueying and me trying to sneak off by supporting each other and climbing up to level 2, I hide behind a rubbish bin and under the benches during the iceman game and many many more. The most memorable part is when the guys got their underwear tore into pieces when they were found hiding instead the running around.

Year 1 GYL camp to Batam Turu resort

Met a lot of nice people there like Gary Zhang, Gary Ng, Sophia etc. We mahjong during the night (That’s when I learn how to play mahjong) and swim, raft, paintball, and go for jungle trekking during the day time. HAHAHAS still remember there was once the guys all came over to my room to stay overnight, like 5 of us squeezed into a bed while Sophia slept on a King size bed on her own with mosquito net. HAHAS and when we woke up the next morning, we were quite surprised that none of us got bitten by mosquito and guess what? It’s because Sophia trapped all the mosquitoes in her net and she got stung till her chin is swollen. And after the GYL camp, we organised a BBQ session at East coast and Gary drove us all to Carpark H, JQ threw cheese fries etc onto a car which there were people making out inside.

Year 1 Drama gems

Got to know Joey, Edmund, Bryan etc from it, and sometimes we will work together for SIM graduation.

Year 2 Gems

I was in the same class with Gary Zhang, got to know a few new friends like Jie Shen. HAHAHAS there was once he saw my feminine wash in my shower bag and ask me what is it, then I told him, ‘Hmm you can bring this to the front and ask our lecturer (female) what is it’. Guess what? He really took my feminine wash and wanted to go forward to ask our lecturer about it, and of course in the end, another gems friend and I stopped him and explain to him what is it. HAHAS~

Year 2 OITP at Indonesia, Makassar

Met a lot of nice friends there though I did mention before in my blog that there were a lot of backstabbers, hypocrites etc around. But overall, the malays there and the Chinese boys were damn nice and awesome people. Bathing in the river with buffalos beside us, jumping into the fish pond and catch our ‘dinner’ with bare hands and a huge net, staking up in the car boot (we were all wet, and inorder not to dirty the car, we sat at the boot) when the car is moving.
Year 2 Muay thai

Got to know quite a number of friends there and gym mates. Muay thai camp was fun, I still remember myself pouring ice water into a guy’s butt crack and we were like attacking each others with paint. Mahjong in the middle of the night, heart to heart chat with the girls etc.

As for year 3, I cant really recall any interesting activities except for going to Malaysia occasionally with a few of my classmates to shop and eat. Guess I am like too busy with FYP, exams and work during year 3.

So yea, that’s my poly life…

Turning point of my life

2011-06-02T16:49:00.005+08:00

Now that I've sent in my appeal forms and letter to both NUS and NTU, the only thing that I can do now is to prepare for the adverse outcome. One week back I took a full day leave to go down to SIM for registration. Yea, I applied for Bachelor in Marketing. Kinda risky to have chosen this path to fall back onto just in case my appeal didnt get through. BUT... I thought marketing is the least mundane course amount the rest of the courses which are offered in SIM, or should I say easiest course? A few friends have warned me on how competitive it is to survive in this industry. Need to be outspoken, need to be creative, need to have very good command of the languages (which I am like CMI for Mandarin and English), need to be able to attract attention and proach for opportunities and whether oes one able to survive or not depends on all these factors. Sighs~Sad to say, I still dont know whether it is the right course for me (still very reluctant to give up on civil engineering, I really loves to draw, design and do everything which is related to building). Can anyone tell me what to do next? I dont wanna work 1 year and apply for engineering again, it is getting more and more competitive. I see people with GPA 3.78 applying for civil engineering got rejected by both local university. Imagine more than 3900 people got rejected this year, most probably some will choose to work and come back again next year. Imagine everyone with that kinda mindset, more people reapplying etc, it will be even more competitive. What if after applying for a few years, still couldnt get in? It is like waiting for nothing, by the time all my peers from the same batch would have already got their degree, or even master, while I am hanging in the middle of nowhere with only a diploma certificate and a few years of working experience. Sighs...

I wanted go back to building related courses. I wanted to build and design houses for my future family members. I wanted to build and design a house of my own with 家的感觉... BUT... =(

PS: A friend told me,'See, you so chiong in poly, 3.5 also no use, in the end you still end up with 2.5 and 1.5 at SIM. Got regret working so hard in poly or not?' LOLS if my gpa is like 3.78, so damn near to the perfect GPA of 4, cannot get in local university, I will bang the wall, but thanks god I am not.

2011-05-18T14:16:00.002+08:00

I find that my life pretty boring. No night outing, no clubbing, not much gathering, no sleeping at home all day long, no time for drama series, no this no that. Sighs =( I feel so old when I look back how youthful I was in the past, going out every day and night, trying out all sort of activities from star gazing to disturb couples who are having sex in the public to overseas trip.

Long update

2011-05-18T11:14:00.006+08:00

Hello world, I hasnt been blogging for like quite sometimes quite to work etc. Thigs to update here... Hmmm let me think...

1. A short 1 day trip to Malaysia with Meijuan, Edmund, Esmond, Jonathan, Pi li hong chun and co.

The night before the trip Mei Juan and I went to Bugis to get some stuff while we bought this 2 similar Hello kitty hoodie. LOLS and I was like telling Mei Juan, 'Tomorrow we wear the same lars, even if we cannot find each other in the shopping mall, all we have to do is to go around asking people have they seen someone wearing the same top?'

I woke up like early in the morning aound 6am to get ready etc, they meet MJ and Esmond and off we go to Kota Tinggi for Bak kut teh... The Bak kut teh's soup there is quite nice, but compared to the one I tried in KL, the one is KL is so much better. (If you wonder why I only comment on the soup, it is because I dont eat meat except for like ham, luncheon meat, sausages, fish and that's all.)

After that we went for durian sesion before we proceed to Parkson to get some biscuits, shopping etc. Then at night, we went to some coffeeshop which is like at least an hour drive from JB for dinner, then pub, then home sweet home.

2. Sandwiches for GF

Hees~I have the sudden urge to make bento etc for my girlfriends, but due to time constraint, I ended up making sandwiches for them with cheese, mayo, black pepper, eggs, crabsticks and butter inside. GF told me that the mayo was not enough, shall try it again went I am free. HAHAS~

3. Took a photo of a rainbow right infront me when I am on way home, in the end, I was drenched.

4. I picked up wrestling class with Beatrice. OH YEAH!! Well, I always wanted to try this out and now, I finally have the chance to.

HAHAS and we were like damn funny, applying slimming cream before we started training. Love the part when we can get to lift each other up etc.. My pull up still CMI, gonna train more often to slim down etc.. Sometimes, I think it is quite terrible for a guy to marry a woman who learnt wrestling before isnt it? Imagine if you agitate her and she lift you up and slam you hard onto the ground like SM. Linda always tell me that she can imagine what will happen to my husband when we get married.

Imagine this scene: -

A man crawling out from the bedroom trying to escape.

And a woman (me) was like pulling his legs from the back and drag him back to the bedroom, sayíng, 'I want SEX, I want SEX, I want SEX!!!!!'

LOLS but I bet I will never do that in the future lars, I dont wanna scare my lifetime partner again.

5. Took Safety Orientation Course and passed it.

6. NTU rejected me.

I was quite disappointed at first, almost feel like crying. But I guess I've grown up and sort of become stronger in terms of mentality. Once I received the letter I straight away plan what are the things that I can do.

a. Appeal NTU

b. Wait for NUS reply

c. SIT's offshore engineering (But I wouldnt be able to fullfil my dream, to build my own house in the future.)

d. SIM's construction management + Master in "green building" related course @ BCA (part time degree and master while I work to gain experience)

But well, hopefully I can get into local university of course. Asked my lecturers to help me with the testimonial for appeal, gonna add in my work experience etc and try my luck again. It's always my dream to get into a local university... =(

7. My virgin experience to site

Let me tell you a secret. I am SUPER happy when I received my first white safety helmet! =3

If I am not wrong,

Yellow helmet = Workers

White helmet = Engineers, Site supervisor, RTO etc

Blue helmet = Safety commitees?

Red helmet = Signal man

Well, if you will to ask me about the weather there, I would tell you it is rather windy. In the morning, the weather is kinda warm, so I felt a bit dizzy. But after awhile as I get used to it, I kinda it quite ok, in fact quite windy as compared to the area near my office, Sungei Kadut.

After I reached the site for like awhile, I started tearing unknowingly. The air there is so dry that even without contact lens, I still kept tearing non stop and I could feel the sharp pain in my eyes. So ya, I will surely bring my eye drop the next time.

The toilet there 'lagi best'. It is even more smelly that stinky tofu... Somemore there is only 1 toilet cubicle for both genders. And guess what I found on the toilet bowl? It's PUBIC HAIR!! Ya and I spent like 1 min wiping off all the urine droplets and pubic hair on the toilet bowl before I use it.

Overall, working at site is not bad, most important thing, weather. Weather is good = working at site is good. But if I were to compare between office and site, I would say that working at office is so much more comfortable. We site on cushioned chairs instead of pile casing. LOLS!! But well, i thought working at site might be a once in a lifetime thing, so is a MUST TRY to me.

And one more thing, sludge + soil looks like the teh tarik I saw at Alif prata house. LOLS! Totally same colour just that teh tarik looks like diluted sludge+soil.

8. I PAID $55.30 for a $5.30 cab fare!!!

Oh, Monday after work at site, I flagged a taxi at Kim chuan road and took it all the way till Potong Pasir Ave 1 to meet up with my classmates to collect my graduation robe. Guess what happened? The taxi uncle stopped me at the junction, right behind the pedestrian crossing and I paid $50 and asked for change. He told me that he has no change for $50 so I decided to dig out my coins for him. And guess what? After paying, he chased me off the taxi telling me, 'Faster faster, there are alot of cars waiting to turn right behind.' After I alight from the taxi, then I realised that my $50 is STILL WITH HIM. This only shows two things.

a. He did it on purposely, knowing that my $50 is still in his hand, he chased me off.

b. He totally forgot that he is holding onto my $$$.

So, I decided to call the taxi company (Is a blue colour auto cab, pretty obvious) the next day. They tracked down the taxi driver immediately and told me that the taxi uncle told them that he have already returned the change to me (You liar!) when I only remember he returning coins to me but NOT $50 note. Not even a single note. They told me that they will be giving the taxi uncle my HP number and let us settle it ourselves. I was quite shocked and told them not to give him my number. Shouldnt the cab company people be like investigating it or like maybe put 2 of us on conference to talk it out?What if he is not happy of me for reporting this incident to the cab company? Will he like call me in the middle of the night to disturb me etc? Nobody knows. And guess what the staff told me? "You have 2 choices now, either we give him your number to settle yourself or you cancel it." LIKE WTF! Is like telling me either I choose to let a long hair uncle have my HP number and talk to me about that (the company totally hack care about it) or I cancel my report and dont make noise? Are they trying to cover up this matter? Does this always happen?

I mean, yea I am like partly wrong because I only come to realise it after I've alighted. BUT he too, being dishonest, intend to cheat my $50 since the start and even deny it when I called his company to check. LIKE WTF!

Well uncle, take the $50 all your want to buy joss paper and burn for yourself or use it as your panty liner, you PUSSY! Fancy you cheating a young lady money, cheapskate!

9. Colection of graduation robe and gathering

I meet up with my poly classmates on Monday night after the taxi incident to collect the graduation robe together, SO EXCITED as I look PRETTY SMART in graduation robe... hees! And also supper at geylang with them, my favourite 126 dimsum as always! Everyone were like either working, waiting for army, doing nothing, waiting for uni etc. And the worst thing is that only 1 of my classmates received the acceptance letter from NTU. The rest were either rejected or never apply. Well, if you read the newspaper today, this year there were like 3900 extra poly students applying for local uni, is like x2 of last year batch... o.0

On a side note, I've tried out various new things during this holiday.

a. Working at site

b. Picked up wrestling

Next up, maybe horse riding or sky diving =P

How about you? =)

Linda's wedding on 27.03.2011

2011-04-17T15:31:00.002+08:00

Pardon me for being so insensitive

2011-04-05T21:49:00.001+08:00

I guess I am rather insensitive and hurt his feelings when I told him that I don’t intend to invite him over for my graduation ceremony… Then, I learnt that he has already planned to take annually leave for my graduation ceremony. It must be hurting, I guess. I thought he wouldn’t give a damn to my graduation ceremony, what’s more is that it occurs on a weekday evening, so I assume that he wouldn’t bother to leave his work place earlier or what for me. Pardon me for being so insensitive, there is nothing that I could say now because the more I say, the more awkward we will be. Sighs~ As I grow older, I learn to see through people expressions etc and everything becomes more complicated.

Easy come, easy go

2011-04-03T23:36:00.003+08:00

I used to thought that I’ve met the worst kinda guys in my life, the worst kinda relationships etc. Not until today, I see my friend’s encounter (his gf is seeing 3 guys at a time) and hear his stories out. Then at night, I meet up with an old friend to fish at Bedok jetty. As for this old friend of mine, his story is somehow similar to mine, his girlfriend left him without a proper reason which left him hanging there, trying to dig out the answer as much as he can. That kinda feelings seriously sucks. It’s a breakup season for quite a number of my friends. Soon, hopefully, a blooming season for all just like rainbow after thunderstorm.

I was just wondering why are my guy friends so emotional, they were upset about the break up that they had. Yet, I guess none of my ex boyfriends have any difficulties getting over it nor even get upset about it at all. Why didn’t I have the chance the meet such nice guys in my life who will actually be upset over small little arguments or breakups?

Short update here about my new job. YEAH I love my job. I learnt a lot more things on Geotechnical and design stuff. And tomorrow, Monday, my in charge will put me on a project already. Cant wait for tomorrow and I will give it all in. So glad that I am working towards my dream, though I am still a small ‘ka-chiam-pu-teh’ assistant project engineer now, but I believed that I will make it big one day with all my hard work and by pursuing higher qualification. Chiong ahhhh, get ready for a better tomorrow. =)

An overdue post of mine

2011-03-31T22:34:00.000+08:00

I don’t even dare to save the numbers. For I knew that by doing so, I would look at it every night and 1 day when I cannot take it anymore, I will call. I stood firm and replied, ‘不见’ (never wanna see you again) when you bid goodbye, ‘再见’. Deep inside, it was all messed up. You reappearance messed up everything, but…. I promised myself to stand firm and shooo you off like a porcupine. Go away and never come back, for your reappearance brings along all those painful flashbacks.

- An overdue post of mine

2011-03-09T01:07:00.005+08:00

Hello people, it has been very long since I last update my blog due to work etc. NOW…. Finally I have the time to blog etc… Ok well, that whole loads of messy pictures below are randomly taken to update about my life.

Blar blar blar….

So yea, my dear Linda Chia is getting married soon, on 27 march and I am one of the 姐妹, so excited. AND yea, Joanne, Hong fang and I have all bought the same dress just that of different colors to Linda’s wedding.

And yea, I haven’t tell you guys what I am working as currently, so ya, I guess it’s time to say now since I will be leaving soon. I’ve been working for ettusais as a beauty consultant for the past 5 months, kinda enjoy it, talking to customers, nice colleagues, caring supervisor etc. I really enjoyed myself working in ettusais, but it’s time to say goodbye now. I wanted to try out something new, experience it etc so yea I decided to spend my left over 4 months vacation on the construction site. Initially, I went to hsbc back for 2 interviews, got in etc, but I backed out later as I am afraid of signing contracts etc, moreover, I am an engineering student, I am confident when it comes into engineering. So yea, I just got a job as an assistant engineer. Damn excited about it and soon I will officially be bangala eh tao eh (Bangala’s “head”) LOLS! Gonna start my new job on 1st April, april fool…..

Recently quite a lot of things happened, but shall not mention here…

Oh ya, on a brighter note, I’ve just received my last semester result. WEEEES~ My GPA rise again!! So now, I will sit back and wait for the result of application to local universities. Hopefully can get in =)

AND hees~ I’ve bought a new bicycle and so far the furthest place which I cycle from my place to is only King’s Albert Mac Donald. Next up, ORCHARD!!! HAHAHAHAS I love night cycling!! And soon, I gonna arrange a star gazing session. It has been quite awhile still I last lay down on the ground, look into the sky, munching crackers and chit chat with friends.

If life can be easier on me…

Short update before I am off

2011-02-27T21:08:00.002+08:00

I shall let the pictures do all the talking. Too tired to even move my eyeballs, has being slogging my ass off for work, exam and training. I got some serious gi burn on my face during yesterday training, my right cheek is still very painful and red till now, as for my chin, worst. 3 red burn lines were left on my chin, it is damn obvious even when I put a layer of foundation over it and it is hurting! =( Well, I’ve a lot too voice out, but let’s check out the pictures first before I start ranting.

Meijuan’s belated birthday celebration @ MBS ku de taThe wind up there is so strong that my false lashes might just fly off anytime. LOL

My new buy and my skincare =P Not using all of them everyday lars, but rotating as I am afraid that my skin might be immune to a certain product.

Recently, there were many things happening. Some were those old stuff which I’ve being bottling down while some were what I least expect to happen. I enjoy my life very much now, I don’t need any boyfriend now as I am already used to it, nor do I need any friend now except for meijuan. Guess what? What I least ever from a friend is mutual respect. I hate it when others raise their voice at me out of peanut matters and made the whole world to turn their eyeballs to my direction. Attention seeking? Or should I say it is a ‘habit’ which I’ve been nurturing in all friends during the past few years for not voicing out my feelings, keep quiet, even to the extent of becoming a tool for others to vent their anger on, scream at, or even to attract attention. WTF?! I’ve got enough of this and that’s it. Hello people, I am not you fucking poodle which you can simply find a peanut reason and yell at me. AND hey MR FUCKER, stop adding on and agitate me when I am feeling low! Alright, enough of ranting. I shall ‘disconnect’ from my current world and take a long break. Well, I am tired of my life.

Relax~

What do you want for your wedding proposal?

2011-02-13T10:29:00.002+08:00

If you ever ask me what do I (from someone I love) when he propose to me, it is definitely not a big diamond ring, nor a bouquet of roses etc but a hand-made floral head wreath. I find it very sweet and woman with floral head wreath will always look beautiful. Hees~ Just a random thought, check these pictures out!

A friend of mine used to tell me that my mentality is too ‘fairytale’ and not realistic, but I rather to be like now. I can keep all the happy memories with me and bring it to anywhere I go, but I can’t bring ermmm… Let’s say a 10 carat diamond to anywhere. Because I will get rob, I might lost it, and lastly, I cannot bring it to grave.
Check out what Rachel got for me! A bottle of whitening pills and sunblock lotion. Hopefully I gonna transform to ‘超级白'after I finished the pills! Thanks Rachel!

Hees~ And my new ‘fake angmoh’ hairstyle for Chinese new year. Gonna dye my hair back soon for work =P. I want Ayumi hair colour!

Meanwhile, I will be gone till 21st feb for my FINAL EXAM in poly! Wees~ Registered local uni, both NUS and NTU. Trying my luck, if cant get in, then SIM. =P BUT CHOY LARS!

Shop shop~

2011-01-22T23:41:00.004+08:00

Sneak preview of the 1st 3 CNY dresses which I bought tonight within an hour. Hees~ All are nude colour, I like!

Stock up my eye mask, paper mask and false lashes!Got these for free! Ettusais tinted lip essence, aqua splash and chocolates!

My new home for all my false lashes and also another 10 pairs of new false lashes! Shopping is great at daiso! OK new buy again. Wees~ Estee lauder cyber white and laneign products!

My 21st birthday celebration

2011-01-18T09:17:00.011+08:00

Actual day birthday celebration with girlfriends

(I never fail to kanna cake on face on my every year birthday. LOLS.. Actual day cake on face, advance birthday celebration, I was thrown into the swimming pool)

see joanne ang applying cake onto my face using a teaspoon?

feeling shy~*

Actual day birthday celebration with my poly class

(Thanks Huimin for the chocolate birthday cake!)

Truth or dare session on my advance birthday party

(See, I was sabo-ed again. LOLS)

Then, I was thrown into the swimming pool on my advance birthday celebration as well. Just right after I blew the candles. WAHAHAHAHAS luckily I know how to swim backstroke back! LOLS

OK and NOW my advance birthday celebration pictures!

(Located at aloha loyang seaview terrace 9) Part of the presents I received on my advance birthday celebration! Thanks alot, people!

Me with pretty Aiting 5a1's 2007

With the gym guys

With my muay thai instructor. Saw Juan at the back? LOLS!

With pretty JasmineMy favourite work friend, RICH! =3

Hongfang and Ah an

My group of lovely girlfriends. Without them, this party wouldnt run so smoothly!

The 2 kelong guys, Teng how and james

ME!My 3 tiers birthday cake!

With 3B01/02

Aiya it's me again

With 3A22

Fireman lift jolin

With 3B22 again!

With Jolin!

Me with Wei Xian

With pretty Carole!

Awww with pretty Xuan en!

Lighting up the candles

With 5A1's 2007With my work friends

With Yifei from SPMT. Thanks for helping me to BBQ, wash and pack everything etc. =)

With Jaryl.

With my classmate (3A21)

With the couple again

With my parents

With my gym mates!

I need to thank all those who attended my birthday party, bought presents for me, and wished me happy birthday on my facebook wall and sms. THANK alot!

Overview of 2010

2011-01-10T10:43:00.007+08:00

January
I was attached on Christmas, but the relationship ended very soon. Well, none of my relationship last long, is either there is a problem with me, or I am just plain unlucky. I celebrated my 20th advance birthday celebration @ KL with my girlfriend. This is the first time I celebrated my birthday overseas, first time trying bak ku teh. (Soup only, I don’t eat meat) Came back to Singapore on my actual birthday 4 Jan hoping to celebrate my birthday with J (My bf during xmas till jan) as it is the first time that I gonna celebrate my birthday with my bf. However, upon my return, I found out that he actually spent the past few days with another woman, enjoying themselves, staying together etc. I called for a breakup. Shall not mention about what happened after that. Afterall, it was a really bad birthday ‘surprise’ for me, but I rather realize it earlier than to suffer in the future. February
Its Chinese new year and Valentine day. Again, another lonely valentine day, which marks 20 years of lonely valentine day for me. HAHHAHAS. As for Chinese new year, something happened to my family (shall not elaborate on what happened) and I spent my Chinese new year eve eating reunion dinner at Linda’s place and the rest of the days gambling, etc. OK, the most suay thing is that I lost $400+ on Chinese new year eve gamble session. Not even Chinese new year yet!
Linda Tan’s birthday, bought a Swarovski’s bracelet for her.

March
I joined my school for overseas attachment at Makassar Indonesia. Enjoyed the trip, jumped into the river and fished some fishes with my bare hands, bathing in the river with buffalo, saw shooting stars, exploring caves, climbing into caves which are dug in mountain for storing of coffins etc, sleeping beside bugs, etc.Joanne Ang’s 19th birthday, bought a coach coin purse an dior eye cream for her. April
Holiday.
Hweelay’s birthdayLunar with Joanne.

May
Cut my hair short, and is very very short!June
Went to kelong at sibu island with jaryl and his cca mates. Made a lot of friends there, caught fishes and sotong. HAHHAHAHAs and my fishing rod nearly got fished away by a big fish while I was chatting away and didn’t hold on to it.Sentosa with Edison.

July

My first time cooking Japanese cuisine for my friends.

August

Marina barrage kite flying session + picnic with girlfriends

September

Indonesia friends coming to SG.

October

Got a new job. Working as a beauty consultant in XXX company (Shall not share so much of my personal information) LOLS and during this period of time, I started to become very vain, more into skincare products, makeup and also read up japanese magazine.

November
JB trip with my classmate for abalone noodles, lok lok and also shopping!Linda’s 21st birthday celebration. This is when I start to read up on Japanese magazines, learn how to put on fake lashes etc and it sort of changed my facial features.

December

Advance Christmas party at Yuhao’s. Preparation of my coming 21st birthday party.

In a nutshell, 2010 is not a very good year for me, but, I learnt a lot.

2011-01-01T21:20:00.002+08:00

I know that I am a brave girl, am a strong girl. It's ok, everything is going to end soon, is going to be ok. Nothing gonna bring me down. For the last time... Shall blog about my 2010 life after my tomorrow 21st birthday party.

2010-12-30T22:23:00.002+08:00

I just wanna lie down, close my eyes and not think about anything. The more I ask, the more I hear, the more my blood boils. Remember what you said and better dont turn up and make me angry again. I've been working my ass off these few days, 5 continuous days without any break and now, I need to rush through everything, get drinks etc all by myself. It's really not easy to plan an event, and thanks guys e.g. tenghow, james etc for being so supportive, willing to wear wings with me. Well friends, whether or not to turn up of my 21st party or not, whether to follow the theme or not is up to you. I will be very touch if you will to turn up and follow the theme.

Not angry with those who are not attending due to work, personal issue etc, but just kinda disappointed when one told me that he/she dont feel like going when he/she can make it. So from then on, I decided not to ask anymore, come or not, up to you guys. At the end of the day, quality triumphs over quantity.

Another point which I wanna voice out is that I spent money but 'buy' my happiness, to set up the party etc, not to buy black faces. Plus minus one person who is not important in my life doesnt make a different.

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When you realised that people start using use, taking every little advantages of yours e.g. money, etc what will you do? As for me, I act blur so that things will not turn ugly. But I bet my patience not gonna last that long.

Update on my recent life??? I shall use symbols to say everything

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Merry Xmas! AND a happy new year + a soon-to-be happy BIRTHDAY!

2010-12-27T10:59:00.005+08:00

Hello PEOPLE, I am back! PS these few days were very busy for me. Xmas party at yuhao's, went all the way to kovan to order my birthday cake, order bbq food, collecting liquors, buying makeup, movie, supper, dimsum, my advance birthday meetup etc. Shall blog and start typing when I return back from work ya! Stay tuned, meanwhile just enjoy the pictures below. Hees~

Merry Christmas! Christmas party at Yuhao's My dearest girlfriends (I am in red hot lipstick, MUAHAHHAAS)

The whole group of friends at Yuhao'sMeijuan and I Hongfang and IAfter helping Linda to put on abit of eyeliner, upper and lower lashes, blush and lipgloss (She is such a beauty in makeup)

My Christmas presents (Mug mug xmas)My mini present for girlfriends and as for the main present for exchange, I bought a shiseido white lucent facial wash
My new buys at PS and mustafa with Tenghow (Thanks Tenghow for accompanying me throughout the night to shop, eat and watch movie. Awww really ps.)

WINGS for my birthday themeMy new fake lashes, hair volumizer and eyelinerThe boxes of lashes I had at home.

Meet up with Beatrice and she passed me my advance 21st birthday present as she cant make it for my 21st birthday, returning back to paris on jan 1.. Sighs. BUT HAHAHAHAS a very nice chit chat session with Beatrice. Curly hair. WAHAZHAHAS

My 1st time in a black maxi, it is like almost sweeping the floor

Makeup for the day

AND YEA, I've bought the canon, jager and champagne back home.

My birthday cake is something like that, 3 tiers with cake and cupcakes, but different design. Hees~ Got it at a cheap steal. =P

Birthday wishlist

2010-12-20T02:02:00.008+08:00

YOOOO!! Many friends have being asking me what I want for my 21st birthday. Soooo here is my wishlist. BUT aiyaaaaaaaaaa, as long as you guys coming for my birthday I will be more than happy. I just wanna have a happy birthday and spend it with all my friends.

So here goes my wishlist:

Ettusais aroma body wash $34

(I've very bad scars and spots over my back. Need to get rid of those spots)

Hair volumizer @ SASA $24.90 (I bought already)

(My hair with centre parting look too thin as if my 'roof' on top can be blow off easily)

A pink baby dumbo elephant (mei mei) from mini toons <$15

To match with my whole family of dumbo papa, dumbo mama, dumbo mistress and dumbo didi (ok i know i am childish, but I just simply love dumbo elephant alot. I even got a dumbo elephant top. LOLS)

Johor Bahru's Dry abalone noodles (No seafood, no meat, only want abalone) RM10
(14, Jalan Kelewang, Taman Sri Tebrau, 80050 J.B. Johor.)

To able to see all my friends on my birthday party (MOST IMPORTANT!)

Geylang lorong 15 126 Dimsum's Chee chong fan, century prridge, zhao pai dou fu, yu mi sui

Sweet baby pink/blue/floral accessories etc

Dolly wink's fake lower lashes No.8 @ taka's watson
$24.90 per pair if I'm not wrong

Candy doll's baby pink lipgloss@ taka watson $24.90

Ettusais skin version up extra $37

Triumph A70 Maximizer t-shirt bra $79.90
(WAHAHAHAS)

Ossion's bubble mask $38

Baby pink daisy (My favourite flower)

A golden headset

KOSE junkisui facial foam @ $29
(It's my savious whenever I have very serious breakout)

King/Twins/Fairtex MMA gloves $50+-

Ettusais lip essence $31

Become prettier blar blar blar ...

And the list goes on

AND below are the more ermmm.. expensive stuff. Dont expect to receive it as it is kinda too expensive for anyone to buy that as a birthday gift and I'll saving up to buy these for myself. Hees~

Tiffancy & co lock ring

(My FAVOURITE)*
Tiffancy & co key necklace

(OK I am a very traditional person, I will definately get a key necklace for myself on my 21st)Chanel double C ear studs ($380-$400+)
Chanel large flap bag >$2200

CURE natural aqua gel

2010-12-20T01:37:00.002+08:00

I believed many have heard of this product. It was quite popular, selling fast in watsons. My girlfriend and some of the beauty consultants whom I knew got it and the feedback I got from them was not bad, hence I decided to give it a try still I have very dull skin and I am looking for an exfoliator.

Exfoliating power: ♥♥♥♡♡
As compared to givera marvel gel, it is not as effective as it. But well, frankly speaking, after using it, I felt that my skin becomes smoother.

Scent-less: ♡♡♡♡♡
It claims to have no smell etc, but after applying it, I sort of smell it, like glue which makes me dizzy. Note that I have very sensitive nose and I get dizzy whenever I smell certain smell etc glue.

Texture: ♥♥♥♥♡
Quite like the texture because it is not rough at all and is very gentle to my skin.

Will I be getting a 2nd bottle?
No. Most probably I will be looking for other exfoliator as I am really very sensitive towards certain 'scent'.

Recent update

2010-12-15T23:10:00.005+08:00

Hello people!!!! My life has being v v busy recently over work, preparation for my coming 21st birthday party etc. HAHAHAHAHAS and I just got my hair dyed. Gold hair nicer or black nicer? My initial plan was to dye my hair into ash blonde but the hairdresser seems to be having a hard time bleaching my hair etc. He bleached my hair twice before he started dying my hair as my natural hair is TOO BLACK. Bleach hair, dye hair, hair treatment and also got a tube of loreal colour treatment cream (500ml) and everything cost me $104 as there is a 50% promotion going on and I simply love the way the hairdresser cut and part my hair. YEAH to centre parting~ HAHAHAHAHAS I still remember a friend of mine used to tell me that people with centre parting look like a 'pussy head'. Try to imagine that ya. LOLs~ Below is flooded with all my camwhore pictures and also my new buy!

My new buy~!!!

Gold eye brow pencil and eye brow mascara from sasa

My new fake lashes (all my friends thought that I didnt put on any fake lashes as my previous fake lashes are way too natural) and collagen eye mask (v v effective)

My cutie strawberry curler. It curls my hair in just 10 minutes time! Check it out

Collagen crystal eyelid patch

Descriptions:

reduces dark circles

removes puffiness

with moisturizers

prevent & refine aging

anti-wrinkles

refirming

innovative sheet - absorption rate higher than 98%

Frankly speaking, after using this for continuous 2 days, my dark circles are greatly reduced (friends who saw before my naked face knew that I've very serious dark circles problem). And best of all, the mask actually stick onto my face well that I can turn and flip while I am sleeping, no worries that the mask will slip off or what. Before using, the mask is very thick like a silicon pad but after leaving it overnight, it reduced into a thin sheet of golden paper. Cool right? Also it smells very sweet and nice (I am very particular towards scent as I've v sensitive nose). It sort of cool down my eyes after I long day of work, and yea, just got another 5 pieces yesterday, and tomorrow I am going down to get a 1 month supply + my friend's christmas present.

Shall update about my experience on CURE etc on my next post.

Scare you guys with my 'makeup face' and my naked face. hahahahas!

2010-12-13T01:25:00.004+08:00

Left side of my face: Without makeup
Right side of my face: With makeup

Can you see the diff?

With full makeup

Cracked me up

2010-12-07T16:14:00.006+08:00

I went to a photocopy shop in school to get my tutorial copied yesterday. As we were the last customer that the photocopy auntie is serving, I sort of caused her to end work later by less than 5min. After the lecturer in the room left, the auntie started ranting: 都是你！害到我不可以关店!and throw stuff (unhappy expression) as there were more students coming in.

However, she chased the students out by saying: 出去，出去，不要进来，我要关店了。Apparently some of the students who also wanted to print their stuff got chased out and were unhappy about it. Then....

a student started to play with the door.

Aunt:是谁玩门？！
Student:不是我
Aunt: 不是你是鬼啊？！
Student: woo~ 我是鬼~
Aunt: 你是鬼就不应该在这里。死回地狱！！

*auntie slam door

hahas the student who disturbed the auntie is damn funny.

Emo

2010-12-04T21:39:00.002+08:00

In terms of love/kinship, I can say that I am almost in a 'bankruptcy state'.

I dont know what the hell got into me and made me so emo these few days. I couldnt help but to keep recalling what happened nearly a year back. I landed myself in a mess, and till now, my mind is still in a mess.

Those scenarios are still flashing in my mind every now and then. How you play with my wigs, how we laugh when I acted as if I've 3 King etc during a texas poker game, how you promised me that you wouldnt leave me without a proper reason or cheat on me, how we feed monkeys together, how you first hold my hand, how you look like in big t and basketball shorts, how you hold my hand when you are driving, how you place my arms across your waist when you are riding, how you sing to me while i fall asleep, how we disturb couples having sex in car. But little did I know, you've being lying to me from the start, you've intended to cheat on me from the start.

The feeling was really terrible when I returned to Singapore on my birthday and learnt that you actually brought her home to stay overnight. I couldnt help but to cry, I dont know what to do. My mind is blank. When I look into the mirror, I can still see tears rolling down and the tear stains no matter how I wipe it off and apply another layer of foundation. Initially, I thought that it would be the happiest birthday I ever had for the 20 years because it is the 1st time that I am going to spend birthday with 'my boyfriend'. But sad to say that you've already promised her not to meet me on my birthday, and only turn up half an hour before my birthday ends. 'How could one's mind be so wicked to actually stop him from meeting me when I wouldnt even harm her', I asked myself.

I told myself this is not love. I shouldnt get upset over this. Not worth it. AND never am I gonna plan to celebrate my birthday with just one person. Never!

Tell me, how can one ever forget such a painful experience?

Peek-tures

2010-12-03T23:07:00.004+08:00

Meet to with Ah xing today to purchase the shirt from him, Nine one seven, it's a local fashion company which Ah xing set up recently. The cutting of the top is really good and I love it alot. Pardon me for my big arm muscles. Hees~ Do check out the website @ http://www.nos-singapore.com

Anyway, I need really need to thank ahxing for helping me to get the martel canon at a much lower rate $90 cheaper than the original price quoted. Thanks =))

Finally, I am a certified building construction safety supervisor!!! =3

Linda's 21st birthday party PART 2

Linda's 21st birthday

2010-12-01T19:30:00.005+08:00

Total damages for the month (skincare & cosmetics ONLY) :

$129 (1st day of shiseido sales) + $206 (2nd day of shiseido sales) + $20(+-) (sasa for lower lashes & glue) + $100.60 (watson for skincare & makeup etc)

Gonna 'comment' (not gonna call it a review as I am not a pro on 'reviewing' products yet. Just merely sharing my experiences with you people) on the beauty products which I recently just changed to soon, maybe after 2 weeks of usage. It will be a proper one. OK I am very very into skincare products recently as 1) my dark circles are bothering me 2) sudden outbreak of pimples 3) dull skin 4) dark lips

SKII facial cleanser

Cure exfoliating gel (twice a week)
Shiseido softener

Hada labo hydrating lotion (FAVOURITE!)

Ettusais eyezone massaging gel (FAVOURITE)

Shiseido night gel Ask Huimin to get a bottle of moet chandon rose champagne for me from the airport, but the sales person pass her the wrong one instead. HAIS nevermind, still a champagne and it cost me MORE. Kinda disappointed that I wouldnt be able to try out moet chandon rose on my birthday, but HAHAHAS still very excited when I comes to think about popping a bottle of champagne for my birthday. Thanks huimin. =3

Anyway, I went to Weilun's place (w roy) during the weekend to revise our work with weilun. Weilun has a study room of his own, very nice environment to study in. Gonna really thanks weilun for offering his place for us to study when we cant find any seat in the library and he was even drenched in the rain just to go back home and get 2 umbrella for us.

Presenting princess weilun~ ✿

Next up, Linda's 21st birthday bash @ chevron. OMG she was thrown into the swimming pool and got cake smashed on her face, and girlfriends told me that I will get something even worst on my 21st next year. Gonna get ready to hide etc after birthday song. Luckily Joanne say that she wouldnt be sabo-ing me with cake. AND oh ya, friends who thought of sabo-ing me with cake NO huh as I will be wearing a new white dress that night and the birthday cake cost me a bomb, so please dont play with anything dirty or my cake or else I will surely get angry.

Anyway, LINDA HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Hope you like the present that I got for you. divide the money into 21 notes (stands for 21st birthday) and I made the box, folded the notes and everything myself. Though we always argue, but deep down, you are always one of my dearest girlfriend who are always there for me.

Linda SHY

Did you (Linda) spotted the 'Grow more pubic hair' on one of the ice-cream stick?

The group of girlfriends whom I cherish the most

The rest of the pictures are still yet to be upload yet (w jenny, I supposed.)

OK. AND a 自恋 photo of mine.

I guess I am too sensitive at times, yet I couldnt help it. =(

Centre parting

2010-11-26T00:43:00.001+08:00

WAHAHAHAHAS!! This is my first time using photoshop to edit my own photo. How is it? OK I know I am super noob when it comes to photoshop, but hey... That's my first time using it to edit my picture. Hees~ Centre parting nicer or side parting nicer?

Update

2010-11-25T00:04:00.002+08:00

Hello people... Here's a picture of me with my lash extension (I chose the natural one) but recently I just removed it, need to give my lashes a break...

Anyway these are my 'new buy' for the past 2 days... WAHAHAHAHAS stocked up half a year skincare products. Wees~!

These few days have been rather peaceful, study, work, sleep are slowly becoming my daily routine. Except for like today. I went down to Orchard to get my stuff, did abit of shopping etc, meet a friend for dinner, and after dinner... my friend brought me to somewhere I had been to 2.5 years ago. Nostalgic memories kept flashing in my brain for the whole night. That place where I used to admire it's aesthetic design, those black shiny walls, ceiling and pillars where those blue light shines onto. Where I talk heart to heart with someone who used to be (hopefully) important to me etc. I kept telling myself, 'MOVE ON!'.

I am happy with my busy lifestyle for now which I can save up an amount of money for my 21st celebration and also rainy days. Some might be telling me, 'Girl, you seems to work too hard for your 21st' but none knows the reason. The reason is simple, I want a happy 21st birthday, I dont wanna spend it alone anymore and I am sort of 'compensating' my 20th shitty birthday. Never will I want it to be that way anymore. Simple as that.

2 more weeks to term test and this week will be the last week of work for the month as I am going to concentrate fully on my revision for these few weeks.

Mood swing

2010-11-19T13:17:00.002+08:00

How do you feel when all that you've done halfway was taken away by others and claiming that you have not done you work? This was the first time that I encounter something like this and I was totally lost. A mixture of feelings arise. The worst part is when I approached the person, the answer I got was, 'Then? Do you think that you are able to complete everything by today? Frankly speaking, no right?' To think again, how do you except me to complete everything within a day when you took over my portion a week ago without informing me? The 'message' which you sent across to me is that you dont even have basic respect/courtesy to inform me beforehand and your friend actually tell me that I am not doing anything when I've already complete everything only left with that editing part which you edited for me. The feeling really sucks. I wanted to confront that individual many times, but it was like 'who will listen to me when that individual is a brainy and everyone will thinks that whatever he say or did is always right'.

Well, I guess I shouldnt step out of my comfort zone in the very first place by grouping with people whom I've never work before with. I am not blaming anyone, but you know, different people different working styles. To many people, they might think that, 'Aiya, people say I never do my work, then just let it be lors, why make a big fuss out of it?'. But, personally, I am very particular about it. I hate to be seen as a loafer and I think that I always did a fair share or more for all my assignments.

What do you expect me to do when you took away what I've done halfway, and worst still, you dont even bother to inform me about it. I know my result might not be able to match up with yours, but at least you should inform me beforehand just like how you seek for your friends' approval when you wanted to take something from them. If you think that the work that I've done is not up to your standard, you can tell me and I'll take a one week off just to get the project done nicely till the DIST standard that you want.

Consequences of AIDS

2010-11-17T23:29:00.004+08:00

Hi guys, found some pictures online regarding to AIDS. Find it very interesting, so just wanna post it up here to share it with all of you. Enjoy~

Where the true happiness are at

2010-11-13T22:15:00.004+08:00

I really enjoyed the 1 day JB eating trip with the guys alot. We went to City square to shop abit, then I suggested abalone noodles for dinner, spent at least 40mins looking for the abalone noodles store because the only thing I know about it's location = nearby got petrol kiosk, got wet market, got 1 bank, and got sell lok lok infront. Thanks guys for searching that place with me despite being hungry. Soooo long since I last had abalone noodles. Love it ttm. Then after that went to Holiday plaza to shop, got a fairy like white tube dress and 3 pairs of contact lens. Then proceed to the night market, then LOK LOK!!! The most enjoyable part of the trip is the lok lok part. 1st time in my life standing by the roadside eating fried mushroom. Love this kinda simple and sort of kampong life? Or should I say hmmm slow pace? My stress are totally relieve at that moment~ I am REALLY happy when I am there, relaxing myself, eating away happily.

we are the 1st customer that day

huiming with his abalone noodleskairen with his abalone noodlesWAHAHHAHAS and me with my SUPER abalone noodlesWEES~LOK LOKWith our LOK LOKthese 2 are my favourite lok lok.. crab stick and mushroom

YUMMY~!I ate 9 sticks of lok lok in total

I REALLY LOVE IT ALOT!!!!!

I supposed to share all my happiness on this blog. Meanwhile, I shall hold on to the rest. Just feel so damn stress in Singapore. Everything. Too tired to hold on to anything now, and time to do something about it. I simply hate it when people try to 'control' over my event. I treated my own event very seriously, dont expect people to fool around with my event. ITS NOT FUCKING FUN OR HILARIOUS AT ALL! AND friends please, if you are confirming coming, please do not fucking put MAYBE COMING. Because this fucking pissed me off. Is either you dont reply, click NOT ATTENDING, or dont fucking toy around with my stuff. Well, nobody think about how I fucking think or feel. Are you even serious about my event? NO. I see it by your replies, your answers. You give me shit and I will give you back the same fucking shit. I dont fucking deserve this. 多一个，少一个都无所谓。反正现在感觉上好像什么都没有。 (Not refering to those who are really unsure about their schedules and had already told me about it before hand.)

2010-11-10T16:34:00.002+08:00

I hate the feeling of incompetent, contributing very little to group work etc. It simply make me feel like a loafer who doesnt do much work and slack around. When my workload is heavy, I will only complain busy, stress etc. But when it comes to a point where I cant really contribute much to something and make it perfect, I really feel like breaking down anytime. I cant really understand what is going on, no one tells me what to do, I need longer period of time to understand a simple concept.

I hate it!!!
I hate it!!!
I HATE IT!!!

PLEASE be alright

2010-11-10T00:20:00.003+08:00

I am praying very hard that later session will be a good one and my friend will be given a chance. (Not gonna elaborate on what happened)

The friend whom I used to travel all the way to toa payoh just to chit chat and slack, please be all right. Still remember most of the time when I come down to tpy, he and his friends will accompany me to eat mac etc. When I nag and make noise, telling them that I wanted to visit the old graveyard so much, they really made the effort to walk me there. Cant believe this will happen to you, a used to be so nice and gentle boy. PLEASE, please be alright tomorrow. I hate to see my friends leaving me one by one. Oh god, please give him a chance.

I dont know why but my heart is feeling so heavy right now. =(

My 21st birthday bash on 2nd Jan 2011

2010-11-08T22:27:00.004+08:00

Hello people, I’ve booked a chalet for my 21st birthday at aloha Loyang and would like to invite you guys over to celebrate my 21st with me.My actual birthday is on 4th Jan but I booked the chalet on 2nd Jan (Sunday).

2nd Jan (Sunday)

3rd Jan (Monday – public holiday)

4th Jan (Tuesday)

For those who are still schooling don’t have to worry that next day there might be school as 1st Jan falls on Sat, the following Monday will be a public holiday. (SO NO EXCUSE FOR NOT COMING YA SINCE I BOOKED YOU GUYS 2 MONTHS IN ADVANCE + THE FOLLOWING DAY IS A HOLIDAY)

The chalet is a pool terrace, double storey with 4 bedrooms, bbq pits and also fully equipped kitchen. So can actually stay over.

There are:

Bicycle rental
Mahjong table/ mahjong rental

Swimming pool

Seaside

nearby.

Anglers who wanted to fish can also walk to pasir ris park. (5mins walk)

People whom I am inviting:

1. DCEM/FT/3A/21 (ALL)

2. DCEM/FT/3A/22 (ALL)

3. SPMT (ALL) – All better come if not I will puke off all your armpit hair

4. GYL’ 2008 (ALL) – Please help me to inform Gary Zhang

5. SP anglers – whoever went for the kelong trip (Please help me to inform Jaryl cause he doesn’t have a fb acct)

6. SP gems friend: Joey, Bryan, and Edmund

7. DCEM people: Yi nien, Teivian, Hanlong, Chris, Feng, Vivian

8. Other SP friends

9. Hillgrove 5A1’07 – All better come huh

10. Girlfriends: Meijuan, Joanne, Linda, Hongfang, Hweelay

11. BCs

12. Outside friends: Soe, Xiuhui, Kenneth, Charlie, Jason, Frankie, ashton, larry, weilun, linda tan, aaron, rosten, herrsong, jarod, lucas & co. joey bao, jimmy, lawrence, james, joshuaetc

13. Gym mates (ALL) – impact, fight g

14. Online blog friends - karmen, hongpeng etccc

15. SP cad hub (ALL)

Whoever i missed out, PSI need to confirm the amount of people who are coming, so PLEASE reply me ASAP and PLEASE come.

What theme would you guys prefer?? HEES cross dress? (most probably once in a lifetime)

AND lastly, I would like to confirm what kinda food and drinks you guys prefer?

How many people are are going for alcohol?

Liquor: Martell or Chivas?

Beer: Heineken or Tiger?

Champagne: Moet chandon or Tattiger?

Food: Halal? Vegetarian? Blar blar blar…

PLEASE reply me ASAP ya. If you have any queries do msn/sms me.

Will check & remind you guys again on dec 25 (8 days b4 the chalet). Check & remind again on 1st Jan 2011.

Note that I am very serious about this and will get everything done nicely.

For location and 'how to get there' wise, check out the printscreen below.

I screwed up my 20th actual birthday, not gonna screw up my 21st anymore. I would rather spend money and celebrate it with all my friends, than to just wait for a guy to celebrate it with me. Thinking back, I am really stupid to have waited the whole day and push away all my friends invitations just to wait for 'him' to celebrate my 20th with me. In the end, he still chose to listen to his ex and not celebrate my 20th with me when I am his gf. Oh man, how can I ever forget this? I hate to be alone on my birthday. Never will I choose to just spend my birthday with one person.

At the same time, I was trying hard to comfort myself, ' Dont worry, everything will be back to normal and fine for my 21st'. I should be glad that I've see through 'him' early. You can never get a spouse who chose a pussy over love, because he will only make you upset.

Hope that there will be no argument between my friends and everything will run smoothly for my 21st. I am very serious about it.

Anyway yesterday after gym-ing at shenton way, I went for a short shopping spree with Meijuan. Got a pair of black comfy heels for work, essential's conditioner (intro by Hongfang, it's really good at frizzy hair and smell damn nice) and Nexcare pimple sticker (love it to the max, my pimples are gone within a day). Enjoyed my day with Meijuan, chit chatting heart to heart. She is always like a big sister of mine. =)Just when I start complaining that I am broke, NUFFNANG FINALLY MAIL ME A CHEQUE. YEAH... Can finally get my foundation, eye gel and my contact lens etc with it!! Anyway my blog statics had been dropping drastically, but aiya who cares. I blog because I like to, not because of money.

WEES~ Going to JB on this Friday with my class guys to get my contact lens and town on Sat to look for my 'baobei' Fericia. Cant wait for this weekend. HAHAHAS

LOVE NAPFA!

2010-11-03T22:13:00.005+08:00

I should learn how to manage stress well. My studies are giving me problem. I am trying very hard to get everything perfectly done and tried to understand everything as much as possible eg. clarify doubts with lecturers immediately after class or during lecture/tutorial. On the other hand, the outcome is kinda disappointing, what I thought was up to standard wasnt. The feeling sucks, kinda disheartening. Just like something which you thought you've did it well, but in fact, you found out that you didnt in the end because there are mistakes everywhere. I dont likw this kinda feeling, I like my work to be perfectly well done no many how many times I need to edit.

I always thought that stories such as Cinderella are fictional stories and there are no such mean people in the world such as the step sister(s) until one day I met someone who is almost the same as what those storybooks describe. Just like what we see on TV, those mean america high school girls.

mean
over-bearing

stories-weaver

What's more?

As I grow older, I learnt something. When I met such person, can 'siam' (avoid) then 'siam', cannot 'siam' then just keep smiling and let them finish 'singing'.

There are so many things that I wanna say here, but time doesnt allow me to do so. I have been working + studying for the past few weeks. It's damn tiring and my dark circles sort of worsen. Whenever I have abit of free time, I will either sleep (to replenish energy) or revise my schoolwork. So friends, please be understanding ya. =) No time for training etc and my schedule is really damn packed. OFF this Sunday, but gonna meet up with Meijuan and catch up with her and maybe go back to gym before meeting her. I need some exercise, gonna contact SAF tomorrow to enquire about female BMT. =P

Oh ya, BTW I took my napfa last thursday and the result is out.

Standing board jump 1.8m

Inclined pull up 18

Sit & reach 43cm

Shutter run 11:43 (if i m not wrong)

Sit up 38

2.4km 15:46min

OK I know my result is SUCK because I hasnt been training for damn long, but still, overall I got a GOLD and received a crumpler pouch from school. The overall process was really damn good. Especially the 2.4km run, very motivating and I actually run faster than usual (my stamina sucks like shit and normally I will run 3 rounds, walk 3 rounds). Cant wait for the 7 weeks army life to start, bet it is even more exciting than overseas shopping trip. HAHAHAHAS can crawl in the mud, climb up walls and obstacles, 7 days field trip. SONG BOOO?!

Anyway, I went down to orchard and get my eyelash extension done today. Chose the $50 one, natural one,m quite nice except that it hurts. The fake lashes are poking into my eyelid. Love my lashes now. AND HOORAY!!! I dont need to put on mascara or fake lashes during work, SOOONG BO?!

I think my temper is really good. I hardly voice out my unhappiness though there are lots of thought running in my mind. Should learn how to voice out.

Testicle infested with larvaes

2010-11-01T01:02:00.003+08:00

I came across this article which I wanna share with everyone here. GUYS get ready and hold your balls tight.

I know, I'm stupid for telling this story on Newgorunds, because I'm aware
that many assholes will laugh at me, or just won't believe me. I don't care. I'm
not a circus freak. I'm not here to amuse anyone. I'm just telling you this
true, and very sad story that happened to me.
One week ago, I have been diagnosed with testicle worms. Medical analysis showed that my testicles have been infested with larvae. The larva is called angiostrongylus cantonensis. It develops under the skin and lays its eggs in the flesh of its host, like most parasites do. But this one can't be treated with medication. It has to be surgically removed. Three weeks ago, during a trip in Sudan, in Northern Africa, my balls started itching heavily. After a while, they became red from the scratching. But they were still itchy as hell. Three days later, I was back to Canada. My balls were still incredibly itchy, and I couldn't stand the situation. I wasn't prepared for the horror when I looked down at my testicles and saw those worm-like creatures moving under my skin. I was horrified. I almost fainted.
So I went to see the doctor, that was two weeks ago. As time passed, it seemed like there was a lot more worms than before. However, my balls weren't itchy anymore. They were awfully painful and swollen. They had turned into a slightly reddish-purple color. I could clearly see the small, shite worms moving under the skin, but I couldn't feel them. All I felt was an intense, sharp pain. It felt like my balls were being crushed in a vise. I wanted to die, I couldn't stand the pain. It was too
awful. The doctor couldn't believe what he saw. He said that my scrotum was
clearly infested with larvae. In order to analyze the worms, he had to practice
a small incision on my scrotum, maybe 2 cm-large, so he could grab some live
worms and submit them to analysis.
One week ago, the results came in. The larvae infestation is irreversible. In other words, I'm fucked. I will have to be surgically castrated, or the infestation could spread into my vital organs and possibly kill me. I had to choose: my balls, or my life. I chose to stay alive. My birthday was on June 25th. Yes, that was only 5 days ago. I was in a hospital bed, and my balls had been freshly removed. Yet it felt strangely
good, compared to the pain I had to endure for almost two weeks. What a great
birthday gift. I'm incredibly depressed right now, I think my life is ruined.
I'll never be able to enjoy sex again, since castration also takes away sexual
desire and sexual pleasure. But I'm alive. It's the only thing that matters.

Worried seed

2010-10-23T00:21:00.003+08:00

I dont know whether is it PMS or what which changed my views and mood totally these few days. Things werent going very well, I see them quarrel, I see them cold war etc. I thanks god that most of the time I am either studying or working, so... most probably less friction etc. Yesterday while I was walking back home, I saw him standing by the corridor, staring into the blank. I knew there must be something wrong, he is upset over something, but I dare not to ask him why. All I didnt was to greet him, and went back home. I was kinda paranoid, kinda scare whenever I see him or her standing by the corridor. I am afraid that they couldnt cope with their stress etc and jump, just like what my neighbour did. You might think that I am thinking too much, but I cant help. Everything when I see either of them standing by the corridor, leaning against the wall, my thoughts start running wild.

I always ask myself, am I too much of a burden to them? Is my school fees too much for them? Is it very taxing when it comes to my school fees and daily expenditure? What should I do? I need to save up a huge sum of money incase something will to happen? Are they stress over money matter? Or family matter? Why do we feel like strangers yet I will always get worried whenever I sense that they are upset? What are they going to do next? Can they cope with the stress? What am I suppose to do?

I am born to be a worried seed.

Does anyone understand how I feel? How stressful it is to juggle my schoolwork, part-time job and family well? I need someone to talk to. =(

Vain

2010-10-20T22:21:00.003+08:00

Wee~ So happy. I just bought my new liese juicy shower hair spray. It's for moisturizing and anti-frizziness. Hmmm... Can say it's damn good. Tried it on my hair and my frizzy hair really goes down. Bonus: Smell damn good.

Description
A boost of moisturizing raspberry essence to quench hair's dryness and smoothen frizziness anytime, anywhere. The refreshing berry scented water-base spray invigorates senses with every spray while enabling a fuss-free quick fix to the hair.
Trigger: 200ml

Went to plaza singapura today to get my spoilt sim card replace. Initially, I thought of changing my phone to iphone4 instead, but my contract is only 1 year 2 months old, if I wanna get iphone4, i will need to top up $200 on top of the $500+, which is a total of $700+. Not really worth it. I shall wait for another 7 more months to change my phone etc. =)

Meanwhile, I can save up more money. =p

Ok, spent quite alot today on my new eyebrown pencil, double eyelid stickers, tweezer, liese hairspray, 3 hairbands, 10 sets of fake eyelashes (gonna start wearing fake lashes), eye putti eyelash glue etc. My moisturizer is going to use up soon, gonna get a new one soon. Get back vichy bi-white moisturizer? Or ettusais emollient supplizer? My facial wash too, used up my kose sekkisei powder wash, sk2 facial foam not really effective on me (i think i only used like 1/10 of the whole tube?), trying out biore facial wash now but it doesnt really give me that 'deep cleansing' feeling. Hmm... I am either getting back kose junkisui facial wash (it really gave me that deep cleansing feeling), or try out ettusais facial soap.

OK... I am vain. zZzzZz

Shall update about my life soon, but most of the time, I will be updating twitter instead. HAHAHAS just applied for my data bundle plan.. Can twit anywhere I go lors!

mahjong

2010-10-17T00:00:00.003+08:00

Hello people. Another new post up today which is solely about mahjong only. Afterall I am still a mahjong noob. Just wanna keep some memories of my 'mahjong life'.

Pure Green Suit (绿一色) - 4 points + 1 point (pong 'fa')

(Got this for the last round)

Four lesser blessings (小四喜) - 2points (half suit) + 1point (pong bei for 3 people mj) + 1point (pong dong - 風) + 1 point (pong si - 風)

(I am short of one 'nan' to fulfill 小四喜. Sighs~)

Single suit (清一色) - 4 points

(This is very commonly known.)

Reviews

2010-10-14T20:16:00.006+08:00

Hello people. HAHAHAHAS soooo long since I last blogged isnt it?

OK. BTW my 5th semester GPA is out. UNEXPECTEDLY to be kinda... bad. I expect current sem GPA to be 4.0, in the end I only got 3.663 for current sem GPA. Far from 4.0, but at the same time, I got a dist for finance management.

Meanwhile, I am quite busy with my life. BUSY working (shall not mention which company I am working for now), BUSY watching drama (一起来看流星雨，一起又看流星雨) which are actually china's version of meteor garden. The plot and everything are so much better as compared to taiwan, japan, and korea's meteor garden (boys over flower) especially part 2. I broke into tears a few times while watching this drama and it can really make me feel 'heavy', wondering what happens next? Love it's song as well. AND OMG, the main male lead '云海' is GOD DAMN HOT! Tall, cute, handsome, arrogent and funny. AWWW~! =3

Hees~ Anyway I've grew fatter by 1-2kg? Working doesnt help in slimming down, instead, I gained weight. =(

Anyway I've been going out these few days during my off day and after work to get some cosmetics, base care, makeup remover etc. Bought a few after reading some reviews from the magazine and decided to share my views for these items after using it today.

Biore makeup remover for eyes and lip
Magazine review shows that in 5secs, makeup removal rate is 40-50%, in 10 secs, removal rate is 90-100%. It helps to soften heavily layered waterproof mascara and leaves no oily residue. It also contains moisturizing ingredient and only cost $14.90.

So ya... since it is kinda cheap and my makeup remover is almost finish, I got one and try. Pour abit of it onto a cotton pad, leave it on my eye area for 5 secs, rub slightly up and down gently for 5 secs, and TADANG! My gel eyeliner, mascara and eye shadow are all gone. Then proceed to tidy up and make sure that my every lash are clean and no liner stain on my eye area. It's god-like fast and effective + gentle. Love it to the max.

Sooo ya, being auntie, I decided to fill up the letter fit inside the box and send back to Biore just to get a $10 voucher and get another bottle of remover. WAHAHAHAS!!

Rating: 4.5/5

Ettusais tinted eyes essence

I've been using it for quite sometime already, love it's texture. It has vitamin E derivative, vitamin C derivative, bare skin conditioning, flex fit veil powder in it and best of all, it helps to conceal dark circles, brighten colour pigment ( my dark circles are REALLY POWERFUL) and at the same time, provide my eye zone with treatment. Good right? Can conceal dark circles + treatment.

Ettusais base version up UV
Tried this once before and decided to buy it yesterday. Got sunblock protection, very moisturizing, anti bacteria, conceal pores and redness, helps to reduce excess sebum, and lastly correct skin tone colour. The texture is very light and tinted. After applying it, my skin tone look as if I have already applied a thin layer of liquid foundation.

KOSE lotionAs mentioned before, I am a kiasu auntie, bought 6 bottle of lotion at one go 2 years back. Till now I am still using it. Not bad, but I still prefer the green version one, more moisturizing compared to the blue one.

Vichy whitening moisturizerI use it everynight after shower. Very moisturizing and clear, not oily at all. So people who are afraid of oil or oil seed might wanna try this moisturizer.

AND lastly, I bought a set of double eyelid sticker. As many know, one of my eyes is double eyelid while another is single. So yea, need to balance it up =)Anyway, yesterday 2 sessions of training left me with aches all over... BUT SONG~!!

2010-10-03T03:11:00.002+08:00

One more night before my result is OUT.
Kinda excited + worried because this semester's cumulative GPA will be the final one that I will be submitting to local uni. ARGH~! Whether I can 'roll' into NTU or NUS or not depends on this semester's result. GOGOGO~! Praying hard that my current semester GPA will be 4.0 so that it can drag my GPA up to the 3.5-3.7 range.

Oh well, I hasnt being updating my blog for quite sometimes due to exams and also... hees~ I am lazy lars + my life is quite boring nowadays. Nothing much happened, daily routine = sleep, eat, shit, watch drama. On average, I lie on my bed almost 20 hours per day from the start of my holiday. Sleep on bed, watch drama on bed, I even surf net while lying on bed. HAHAHAS lazy right? Ok, I gonna train hard starting from tomorrow, gain back my muscles and fight like a BOAR. =3

Went to orchard with meijuan today to shop, get her piercing and gossip. I feel very safe and comfortable whenever I am with her, always... I missed how used to meet up after school, take bus 106 to orchard or 61 to bugis. That long bus journey... Awww... She is always like a big sister, protecting me from malicious tongues, cycle me around, etc... =) I thought of piercing back the sides of my belly button to form back that 'cross' belly piercing back, but looking at the sides of my belly button, the scars caused by the tearing of my belly button due to excess piercings, I better not.

I need a holiday job =( ,

to save up for rainy days
girlfriends' birthday presents
my own birthday celebration
sky diving course
horse riding course
.....

I wanna do so MANY things and everything needs MONEY. Sighs~

Shopa!

2010-09-09T02:27:00.003+08:00

Today's paper is like shit. I am not the only one who think that it is tough, even the pros in my class think likewise. So yea, I've already tried my best, lets see how it will go.

Anyway, after today's paper, I went out to shop and get whatever I need. A beige cardigan, a new pair of brown clogs, cutie grey socks, beanie (still I am having a short hair now, dont waste it.), a white top with simple design etc...

Missed out beige/pale pink cropped top, a pair of new slipper, a pair of beige chiffon shorts and a semi-transparent ah pek spect.

Gonna get all these when my wallet is full again.

Something funny to share here. There is this girl (facebook name: Xiangting Xu) who got her facebook or computer hacked and her photos start leaking out. Some guy just posted her half naked photo on her facebook account, and this joker here commented something funny. Though I cant really read chinese character, but the first few words I can still understand, 'Bird bird 硬了'. LOLS lars. The way this pervert guy express himself is damn funny.

Stop concluding when you dont even understand a shit

2010-09-07T23:21:00.002+08:00

Quite sometime since I last typed a proper blog post. And yea, this blog post that I am going to type now is solely about my feelings and the way I view things.

I guess I sort a grow up a little, mentally I mean. I used to keep quiet whenever people (friends) pass crude comments, but somehow, yesterday I just flared up and shoot the person back face to face.

I hate it when people (only that one person) start spreading how badly I treated my last ex bf, scold him, how my ex bf looks are etc. Maybe I got too offended or I think that I had enough of his baseless remarks, I shoot him back face to face.

People who know me well might knew that it's very hard to make me angry and shoot someone back on the spot, very hard...

Why do I say that what he commented about me and my past relationship are baseless remarks?

He dont even know what is going on. Dont know about the stories, dont know about what my ex did, dont even know my ex, then he start spreading and concluding that I am a mean gf when he cant even get the facts right.

Some might tell me to either ignore or explain everything.

Questions. Can you ignore when somebody kept spreading rumours and sprinkle salt to your wound time after times? How will you feel when you tried explaining and before you could start, this idiot just comment, 'Aiya... Dont need to explain. None of my business.'

In the first place, if it is none of your business, why are spreading all those shit and concluding it? are you a 三八？Or when you spread shit about others, fabricating your own conclusion for the story, you will feel damn high as if you are cumming?

This kinda people, cannot talk nicely to him one.

So yup, yesterday I rebut when he start commenting again. He comment that I am ugly, should go for plastic surgery, and my ex too are .... (He: Walau, why all your ex look like that one? etc)

NOTE: this repeat for a few times

I couldnt help but to reply, 'I think I ask my ex all come out stand 1 line, anyhow pick also look better than you. You are the one who should go plastic surgery and widen your dead fish eyes. Your girlfriend look nothing better too, so fat.'

Am I very mean to say that?

Virgin experience on kite flying

2010-08-31T20:57:00.009+08:00

Lixin helping me out with tying of string etc... LOLS and I actually tied the opposite way.

Flying kite again. Joanne's kite.

Picnic with girlfriends. I brought a bottle of white wine and fried spring rolls

Can you blow a bigger one than mine?

My kite! I bought it for like $12 and played for 10 minutes ONLY. I forgot to hook the end of the knot and release it fully. LIKE WTF!

Movie, FYP

2010-08-28T11:39:00.004+08:00

I am quite busy these few days over FYP presentation, greenwave competition and also assignments and term test. So here's the summary of what I've done in these few days.

Movie with Xiuhui and her friend. I've always been nagging to my friends telling them that I wanted to watch this movie etc. Finally... Well, this movie requires me to think abit. Quite funny.
E.g.
The part where En burnt a VCD for his mum's boyfriend. He inserted porn into the VCD instead of those national day performance and En's mum boyfriend actually play it during his military meeting.
En was caught having sex with the girl next door when his mum look out from his room's window which is directly opposite of the girlnextdoor's room.

FYP presentation day, photo taking session with the guys.

Bye peepo! Off to marina barrage...

Lovely morning

2010-08-24T12:43:00.005+08:00

Just had my breakfast with Joanne in the morning and pack breakfast for Linda too.

I didnt sleep for the whole night, and now, I gonna read my notes on my bed till I fall asleep.

My happy pills for the restless morning.
Those colourful markers and chops for my notes
Check out how I managed to memorize all these.

The only thing which spoilt my morning...
I lend you money out of goodwill.
I am doing you a favor and not begging you to borrow money from me.
So please do not fuck me up with your lies and attitude when I ask you for the money.
Dragging is ok, but not when you have the money to club and dont bear to return your friends' money or lied to them.
Your "got money dont wanna return" attitude makes me wanna get back every single cent from you even when I dont need it.

Morning-mare

2010-08-24T07:31:00.005+08:00

It's like 7:30am now.

I had a nightmare yesterday morning, or should I say morning-mare? It's a fucking weird dream, yet realistic. I dreamt of my afterlife that I was poisoned to death by my own family member and only Joanne, Linda, Ah pok and my mother could see me. I tried contacting them and asked their to help me up with a few things to fulfill my last wish. Trust me, the feeling is extremely bad of having so many things unsaid, so many regrets, and so many people whom I wanted to meet again. I was crying out my heart, telling girlfriends to ask whoever to come for my funeral as I wanted to meet them for the last time. Giving my facebook passwords to Joanne, telling them that I still wanna play facebook after I died, giving them 4D numbers etc. The funniest yet realistic part is that I burst into tears, telling girlfriends that I havent get married then die. =( I was damn upset about it, but after awhile I told them that I dont even dare to dream about it now as I am dead. Blar blar blar, and not forgetting of putting all my dumbo elephants and old small pillow into the coffin with me.

Though it might sounds rather weird, but let put it this way. What if you can witness what happen after your death e.g. funeral? It will be really sad no matter what. When you see all your close friends coming to your funeral, talking to you, I am sure you will cry. Even when you see those cb people coming to your funeral just to gamble and ignore you totally, you will also get upset.

If I happens to meet an accident one day, please

help me to put all my dumbo elephants and old small pillow in my coffin

help me to contact all my friends and ask that to go for my funeral so that I can see them for the last time.

burn me loads of hell notes, clothes, house, and also a lap top with facebook printscreen on it.

dress me up in wedding dress if I will to die before I even marry.

girlfriends help me out with my makeup because I wanna look beautiful when I die.

powerpoint slides with all my pictures with friends.

buy me all my favourite vegetarian food

dont come to my funeral just to gamble and eat free curry chicken, very disrespectful. I will make you lose all the way.

please talk and gossip to me when you are watching the night.

please write me birthday card every year because I will be upset if my friends will to forget about me totally.

just in case we can still see what happens after we die. Though it is not scientifically proven, but I am a very "Pan-tang" person. I know it sounds weird and crazy, but we will never know what will happen to us when we die. Nobody knows.

and please DO NOT hire all those noisy taoist priests because I find them very noisy and I presume that I wouldnt be able to rest in peace. Get those chant abit one will do, and play some nice background music.

LOLS quite demanding huh? BUT it's better to leave this message to my girlfriends first and have less regrets if I will to die one day.

From my point of view, the moment before death is not the scariest part, but after you die, having so much left unsaid. (Provided that supernatural thingy like souls etc exist.) Well, different people have different say for this.

笑破肚子

2010-08-23T00:05:00.003+08:00

There are many thoughts in my mind now, I dont know where to start neither do I know how to start. I just happened 2 browse through something on facebook which sort of remind me of my past relationship. At first, I might be angry or dislike another girl who sort of have some relationship with the guy. But time flies. When the feeling for that person start to fade, I wonder to myself is it even worth getting into heat argument with other when he cheated both and told both that they are spiking each others etc. Thinking back, I was so stupid to have become a chess of his and do things according to his plan.

Recently, I sort of witnessed a triangle relationship which happened to both my friends. Things turned ugly when the "official girlfriend" starts fishing out informations etc. It is understandable of how the "official girlfriend" felt etc as I've been through it once. Both were upset when the truth is unearthed, or should I say the three of them? But... As a friend of the "other girlfriend" I could sort of feel the bitterness in her, the 'couldnt let go' feeling and how upset she was whenever she recalls their happy memories.

I thought I should try putting myself in others' shoes and view things from different angles.

In a relationship, love, mutual respect, communication, understanding and trust are the vital aspects, forming a polygon. Once one is gone, the whole polygon which is the relationship will collapse in no time. Note that it is just an understatement made by me.

Alright, next.

Like what I mentioned in my blog the previous time, friends should at least have mutual respect for each other. When I lend money to my friends during their difficult times or when they are in need of money, I expect them to return it (my money) all back to me when I am broke. Let me state this clear, I am doing you a favor by lending you money when you ask me for it. So dont except me to come chase after you for my money when I wanna get back my money. I dont see why people have the money to buy this and that, enjoy life etc yet no money to return me when I need it. If you will to break your promise on returning me that money again, I will take it as me spending the money to see through a person that amount of money is really little. (It does matter how much is it, but I just couldnt stand it when I see people refusing to return me my money while spending their money on clubs etc. Do you even know how many people are complaining about you not wanting to return them their money when you have the money? Or probably weaving a lie like you are returning someone else their money so you couldnt squeeze out money to return the rest now?) No more next time, dream on. Continue with it and people will not lend you money anymore even during your difficult period, or worst, wipe their ass with the notes before lending it to you.

Anyway something interesting to share with you guys.

HDB gays

HAHAHAS this one classic!

Adapted from: http://prince-charles-iv.blogspot.com/search/label/Gay%20Act

Couple having sex in public beach

Adapted from: http://prince-charles-iv.blogspot.com/search/label/Sex?zx=26cc3d150e633176

Random post

2010-08-14T03:20:00.003+08:00

Thursday morning
I bumped into a friend while I was walking down the stairs
We used to at least 'hi-bye'
BUT now
strangers...
Later in the afternoon
another friend of mine passed his phone to me
on the line
another friend whom we used to talk non-stop replied me in a very cold tone
I wonder why
until I put the puzzles together.....

(Shall not elaborate on what happened)

Dear friends, if you see me as a friend, please approach me and clarify stuff with me when heard some bitches bitching about me. If you dont even bother to ask me what is going on and conclude that I am in 'wrong' etc, there is no point for me to approach you and explain everything. Waste of time since that you've already concluded that I am 'wrong'.

Nothing serious actually, just a piece of my thoughts. I did nothing wrong and the 'wrong' means otherwise.

When you see a pig wearing old lingeries infront of you purposely trying to show off her figure though her fat tummy is protruding out, what is the first thing that comes into your mind?
Maybe wearing little infront of others makes her wetter?

Oh no. I shouldnt be so crude.

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As you get softer, you will start to observe and see cracks in your friendships etc. Is either your friends take your 'keeping quiet mode' for granted, or it had becomes a 'habit' to them. Yes, I've observed it. I guess most of my friends knew that even when I am pissed, I will still smile but... I guess I shouldnt hide my emotions anymore. When I find their reasons ridiculous and they pissed me off with stupid explanation which is unreasonable, I shall not hold back anymore and fire it back to them. Mutual respect is a fucking important aspect in a friendship, relationship etc, if you dont even have it, then kindly fuck off. My 'smiles' are for anticipating 'cracks', not for anyone to vent their anger on or whatever shit.

Wooah, this is worst than PMS... but sometimes, I need to be serious when it get on my nerve.

I am selfish, I expect returns in a relationship/friendship which are basic mutual respect, concerns, bonds etc though I knew that I shouldnt except any return at all...

',',',',',',',',',',',',',',',',',',',',',',',',',','

My holiday....... was bad.
1 week wasted. Never work but just sleep, FYP and intensive mahjong 'remedial class'.
My muscles were loosen, time to go for a run..
AND yea, intensive revision starts on Monday then EXAM EXAM EXAM...

Shall update my blog soon when I take pictures..

YEAH!! My new addiction. Friends who know me well knows that I dont like to play game, but this is an exception. It's fun to earn and decoration my own island...

2010-08-10T03:18:00.004+08:00

Hello people! I've added a new widget on the left hand side of my blog, formspring. You can ask me any question over there (provided that it is not offensive) and I will reply it when I receive notification. Check out http://www.formspring.me/hanpeiling I think it is so much better thaan tagbox seriously. I am considering of closing down my tagbox since there are alot of nonsense advertisements posted over it and I am too lazy to log in and delete..

Mahjong-ing these few days. Twice at my place, once at ET's place.

It had been quite sometime since I meet up with ET, Jarod and co. Like 2 years already because everyone year chinese new year we will gather to mahjong etc, but this year I didnt join them instead. So ya, we were updating each others about ourlife and stuff. Time flies. ET's younger daughter is already 2 years old and Jarod is currently working in the property line.

Yesterday mahjong @ ET's place we played 2 pok.
Today @ my place, 3 pok. Shag~!

Anyway, yesterday I thought of going to Hongkong today with Jarod and co since their friend back-ed out last minute, and all I got to do is just to change the name, that's all. Ticket + hotel will cost me less than $300 for 4 days in Hongkong. Quite a sudden decision, but we called Jetstar last minute and realised that we couldnt change the ticket's name anymore within 24 hours flight. So ya, in the end, I didnt go to Hongkong with them. Another few hundreds saving for my 21st birthday celebration.

Oh well, talking about my 21st celebration, my initial plan was to organise a big party and invite everyone. BUT... I later realised that I am not a good host, as in I wouldnt like to stay in the chalet or hotel to entertain guests, most probably I will be cycling somewhere else. So yup, still considering whether to throw a party, go thailand etc for holiday or to spend the money on things which I never try before in my whole life like horse riding, cable ski, wakeboarding, diving etc.

Today, I happened to come across a facebook profile which the owner looks alike as 'you' as well. Quite surprised. He was the 2nd person whom look almost 90% alike as 'you'. Everything still seems like it just happened yesterday, I still cant manage to shake off the shadows of yours. Sometimes, I really wish I could share with you all these, but again, I thought you would have forgot about 'her' already. She had chopped off her long hair already, no curly hair anymore, and somehow become more and more manly, annoying and cheena than before. She is ..... almost gone.

I realised as we grow up, we demand for more, our expectations are higher, and at times, we tend to neglect those things which we used to cherish alot. At times, we changed to meet our very own demands. Erm... I shall explain about this the next time when I have the mood to. Hees~

(This is quite... erm... spontanous, I think.)
Most of the time, I am actually very lonely, I dont deny it. (Dont think dirty huh) So ya, I tend to have quite a number of online friends like karmen, daniel etc. I will talk to them when I have the mood to, when I am feeling down, when I am bored etc.. At times, I could pour almost everything to them (after knowing that they are some decent chap/chicks whom I can talk to online), maybe because some unhappiness werent meant to be discuss with friends or what. Some were really nice people to talk to, and yup, I knew my limit. Afterall, they are still an online friend, I dont really know them very well in real life, online friends comes and go, and I wouldnt be affected by them easily. So yup, friends, you guys dont have to worry about me that much. =)

Jokes

2010-08-05T00:12:00.004+08:00

I've been busying with my projects submission this week. Quite stressful, abit pissed with people who kept repeating the same 'not funny' joke, busy, etc.. And luckily, my friends shared with me some jokes and real life stories which brighten up my day. Thanks to Mark and Jolin.

On MRT

Boy: Mama, mama, I wanna go shhh shhh...
Mum: Wait lars boy, next stop ok.
Boy: Dont want dont want, I wanna shhh shhh now.
Mum: Wait lars boy, no place for you to shh shh..
Boy: I can shhh shhh in your mouth.

*Mum scolded the boy !%$#@^&*()

Mum: Who teach you one?!
Boy: Neh, I always see papa pee in your mouth ma.

*Mum embarrassed. Alight next stop.

Credit to Mark

G6PD

2010-08-03T14:20:00.003+08:00

I always wonder why I am always tired and out of breath untill I read this. I was born with G6PD, which doesnt cause much problem in my life. So yea, just to share with people what I've found online.

Glucose-6-phosphate dehydrogenase deficiency is a genetic disorder that occurs most often in males. This condition mainly affects red blood cells, which carry oxygen from the lungs to tissues throughout the body. In affected individuals, a defect in an enzyme called glucose-6-phosphate dehydrogenase causes red blood cells to break down prematurely. This destruction of red blood cells is called hemolysis.

The most common medical problem associated with glucose-6-phosphate dehydrogenase deficiency is hemolytic anemia, which occurs when red blood cells are destroyed faster than the body can replace them. This type of anemia leads to paleness, yellowing of the skin and whites of the eyes (jaundice), dark urine, fatigue, shortness of breath, and a rapid heart rate. In people with glucose-6-dehydrogenase deficiency, hemolytic anemia is most often triggered by bacterial or viral infections or by certain drugs (such as some antibiotics and medications used to treat malaria). Hemolytic anemia can also occur after eating fava beans or inhaling pollen from fava plants (a reaction called favism).

Glucose-6-dehydrogenase deficiency is also a significant cause of mild to severe jaundice in newborns. Many people with this disorder, however, never experience any signs or symptoms.

Army

2010-07-31T12:58:00.012+08:00

I had a terrible 'nightmare' yesterday while I was taking a nap. I dreamt that there are a few aircrafts dropping bombs onto my area, and I was a soldier, trying to protect everyone here. When the situation worsen, there were only another soldier, an injured man, a woman and I were left under my block. I saw one of the aircraft above dropping down a bomb and we quickly drag the injured man to one corner of the block and hide there. And then... The building couldnt withstand any stress anymore and start to deform... Then, I woke up... The feeling was kinda realistic though I dont know why we ended up at my block downstairs, but... It sort of affect my decision of joining army BMT.

My initial purpose was to have fun, play with mud in BMT etc.. But also, I always wanted to be in the frontline if there is a war in Singapore though I knew that this day will never come. I wanted to protect my nation, to fight, to experience it, to feel it, and many many more... Lastly, I also wanted to know why some guys hated army so much...

The pictures below shall sum up my week. Yesterday 126 dimsum @ Geylang with Jolin, Demi and Fabian.. I ate alot yesterday, 2 baskets of chee chong fan, 2 plate of tofu and a bowl of century porridge. Jolin and the guys only ate like less than 3 tofu and 1 chee chong fan, so I ended up eating everything. After that movie (Ong bak 'dont know 1,2,3 or 4'), dont really understand what is going on and is quite boring. The audiences beside and behind me were all sleeping away in the movie theatre.

My favourite century egg porridge @ 126Slacking with my class guys at Moberly Ice-cream time with my classmates

I was surfing for new footwear online these few days and found some interesting stuff online. Ok, shall add them in my wish list. 有钱了在讲。。。After I save up enough for my 21st birthday celebration and gii...

milky peach shades @ $280.. The colour is damn nice, about the same colour as my current C&K shades.. Love it's thin frame.

AC milano by Jeffrey campbell US$125 (FAVOURITE!!)Waist away mini @ US$48
Check this out @ http://needsupply.com/

I misses my long hair, I misses my baby nieces. I wonder how they are doing, have they grow up already etc.. Sighs..

I've been thinking quite alot these few days. What kind of friends I had etc... Maybe like what girlfriend told me before, If I mix with 'this kinda people, I will be one of them one day. Well they dont really influence me much, and to me, there are different categories of friends.

1. 'Friends' who I would always avoid
The worst kinda friend. Most probably this person had backstab me before etc and pretend to be a good friend. I will always avoid this kinda friend because I dont know when will this person harm and backstab me again. E.g. Stonefish, Rihanna etc

2. Online friends
People whom I couldnt trust or expect more from them. But when I am bored, down etc, they were the best pair of listening ears.

3. Hi-bye friend
Not very close, but does joke already chit chat etc.

4. Friends to hang out together and kill time
Known as 酒肉朋友. They were nice to hang out with but I couldnt trust most of them 100%. But they were nice people

5. Friends
We do chat online, meet out at times, talk cock etc. Nice and fun people to mix around with.

6. Buddies
Someone whom I can trust and tell him all my secrets, feel comfortable together and they always see me as a little brother.

7. Girlfriends
They were like my own sisters. Needless to say, I trust them more than anyone else just that there were times when we argue about minor things. When when I am in trouble, they were always there. When I am down, they were always there.

But at times, my friends might disappoint me... To find a friend whom I can really trust and click well with is really hard, maybe because of my weird character or what...

Sidetrack: I dont know why these few weeks the bad of my waist (I'm afraid that it's kidney) start to hurt really badly. When I was in secondary school, my classmates always warn me not to eat too salty food etc. I shall ensure that I drink at least 8 glasses of plain water per day and cut down on salty food. Sighs, I hate drink plain water the most!

May god bless you

2010-07-28T12:13:00.005+08:00

我一直都在努力，努力的假装不在乎，假装看不到，听不到，不知道。我以为这样就可以风平浪静，海阔天空。一步一步的往后退。。。最算别人把我的东西强行抢走，颠倒是非，侵犯我的人权也好，我最多只是不停的埋怨，但最终还是让步。心里真的很不好受，好无助，好无奈，只可以站在一边，眼巴巴的看着别人把我努力奋斗来的东西，一件一件的拿走。这种委曲求全的生活真的是我要的吗？

在大家的眼里，我应该是一个自私自利，不理别人的感受，好胜，横行霸道的人吧？唯有这样才可以武装自己，保护好自己，最算别人伤害我，这也可以把伤害减到最低。我已经让，放弃，输，失去了太多。我不想再这样下去。可是，我往往无法停止一却。有心无力。。。

如果有一天你最珍惜的人离开了，发现自己的朋友出卖了你，发现你声请来的一笔钱到了手后被你之前告诉过的人给强行拿走了，你的感受如何？

Venues for my 21st birthday celebration

2010-07-28T00:08:00.004+08:00

I was checking out venues for my next year 21st birthday celebration and found these. Still considering, but I am sure I gonna celebrate my 21st with all my friends and make it a big one as I didnt get to celebrate my 20th actual birthday this year. Here are some of the choices, as I said, still deciding. The 1st two was affordable, but the rest.... I will only book it if I get to work during the holiday and save up abit. Let's start from the cheapest.

1. Aloha Changi fairy point 7
As what I read online, it can actually squeeze more than 100 over people in it but.... I need to book approximately 3-4 months in advance as it is a very popular spot. The double-storey chalet is furbished with living room set with TV and games table; dining room set; 4 air-conditioned bedrooms furbished with beds (1 queen-sized and 7 single-sized), wardrobe, dresser, bedside table and wall fan; 4 toilets/bath with shower heater; BBQ pit and a fully equipped kitchen. The suitable group size for day use is maximum 50 persons only; 9 persons only for night use. (HAHAS we dont have to follow what the website says all the time) It is actually quite a cheap steal, $500 for 2 days 1 night during peak season. But well... I dont really know how does it look like from the inside, so yea, it's better for me to check it out before deciding.

2. Capella one bedroom villa @ Sentosa
It was quite a nice spot too, especially when it is located at Sentosa with it's own private pool in the villa itself.... BUT I am not sure that how many can enter. It is quite a cheap steal too @ $1000 when it has a private pool of it's own!
3. Overnight yacht booking
It's always what I want for my birthday celebration or any other special occasion, however it seems to be abit costly and 'selfish' for a birthday celebration. BUT well I will still consider it if I get a job during the holiday! $2600 for a full day and night chartering, additional $200 to bring my own food onboard (buffet), and only 12 guests can be onboard. My family members itself already have 7..

4. Overseas getaway at Indochine's seaview villa or something like that

Price: TBC. Most probably not as I wanted to spend my 21st with all my friends.

Well, it is still too early to decide everything and most of all.

The worst part of a birthday party is not preparation of food etc, but to see my friends left one by one or they just came to show face. So yeah, friends, better stay overnight since I am organising a birthday party for my 21st and if it is the 1st choice, there are 4 bedrooms for you to rest, no excuse.

Late post

2010-07-24T19:04:00.004+08:00

Hello people, I am back! I was quite busy last week, so ya, only get to update my blog now.
Here's some pictures of what I am doing for the past few weeks.

Virgin attempt to cook japanese cuisine at my place. Terrible. HAHAHAS it was supposed to be a lunch gathering at 2pm, in the end I only managed to finish cooking at about 6pm when I started preparing the food at 11:30am. Quite lucky though because I dont know how to cook rice and nobody is around in the morning. So ya... I anyhow aga and poured the rice n water into the rice cooker. Thanks god everything turned out to be fine. HAHAHAS then I noticed that I forgot to buy onion while I am preparing the potatoes and carrots for curry. HAHAHAS damn sotong.

5 dishes, 1 sauce, 1 soup, passionfruit tea and wine.
Japanese tofu, breaded fish, breaded prawn, sushi, steam egg, japanese curry and lastly miso soup. HAHAHA yea, and I took approximately 6 hours to finish cooking all these. NOT easy ok! Linda, Joanne and I were laughing away while we are attempting to roll the sushi etc. LOLS our 1st attempt is damn cui. So yea, as usual, I was eating sushi while making sushi.

Then after everything, big butt buddy came to fetch me and drove us (Big butt and co + me) to handerson wave as requested by me. It was quite clean and nice overall. Beautiful night scene + gossips.

After that we went to Geylang lorong 17, 126 for dimsum. It was my 1st time eating dim sum (as I dont eat meat) and I was so addicted to it. The fried tofu, yummy chee cong fan etc. OMG!!

Then after that shi sha to kill time. So ya, that's my last last weekend, I supposed.

As for my last weekend, few pictures were taken and I was too lazy to upload it here.

Friday - Old cow VS tender grass with Joanne + chit chat till 3+am at my place downstairs.

HAHAHAS this movie is damn funny esp the scene when a TP was trying to book summon and the taxi drivers all shouted, '打抢啊！打抢啊！'

Saturday - Dim sum with Edison at Geylang 126 again. HAHAHAS and can you imagine that 2 of us ate 2 sets of chee cong fang, 2 sets of fried tofu, 1 set of siew mian, 1 set of xiao long bao and 2 bowl of century egg porridge? HAHAS both of us were bloated up thanks to me for ordering too much. BUT sighs... I cannot tahan eating very small portion of each. To me, good food = order more and eat them all up. Overall, it cost us approximately $30+. So yea, still quite worth it. Then after that went to boat quay to meet Karmen and her friends, relaxed, and then home sweet home..

Sunday - Rest at home for the whole day. Night went to alif with girlfriends.

Ok I learnt this from girlfriends.

Singapore bans gay/lesbian songs and movie.

Possession of pornographic video etc in your phone is a crime.

Oral sex is also a crime.

Do you know?

HAHAHAS I couldnt stop laughing at the last fact. I wonder how do the polices know that whether you are having oral sex or not. Anyway, (grandmother story again) do you know that the New England Journal of Medicine study concluded that people who had one to five oral-sex partners in their lifetime had approximately a doubled risk of throat cancer compared with those who never engaged in this activity and those with more than five oral-sex partners had a 250% increased risk.

And sighs.... I suffered from isommia last night. Couldnt sleep all the way to 7+ or 8+am then I fall asleep when I need to wake up at 9:30am to get ready for lecture! Tonight and tomorrow night gonna be hell for me, rushing FYP report, CAD report etc. OMG~

Disgusting personal attack on my private area

2010-07-20T17:30:00.003+08:00

People who are reading my twits might be wondering what is going on.

Well, I shall blog about it after I wake up.. Things werent good at all. I thought I was the most insensitive person living on this earth, but I met someone who is even more insensitive. I got angry when people critisize about my private area, worst still, the statements that she pass around is totally not true. Shouting aloud to make sure that everyone can hear it and irritate me with it times after times despite that I've already made my stand very clearly that I dont like it and I want her to stop it.

1st time few times that you are doing it, I smile.
2nd time you shout across the class and infront of a male lecturer, I tried to joke around to divert attentions and make the situation less awkard. After that I did mention on your facebook wall that I am very UNHAPPY about it.
3rd time you tease me about my shorts with tights again, I look away, keep quiet inorder to control my anger.
4th time you try to trigger it off again by insulting me again and still dare to say things like, 'Aiyo, dont wanna reply me?'

FUCKED up. One more time, just one more time again! I will make sure that I scream in your face and comment about your body till it doesnt even worth a cent! Trust me, I am good at insulting others' private area, just that I dont wanna do so!

This is seriously the greatest insult I have ever receive in my whole life.

OK full story here.

As everyone knows, poly girls like to wear shorts to school. It isnt anything wrong as long as your shorts does reveal your pussy, pubic hair or thunder thighs. As usual, I am always wearing FBT or those yoga like shorts which beatrice always wear to gym one. So ya, this 'somebody' started insulting me, cracking yellow jokes like, 'Can you dont wear shorts to school? Do you know that your butt is damn disgusting?'

I felt quite insulted at first, but I thought she is just being blunt like me. So ya, I smiled back and joke back at times to avoid akward situation.

Soon, she start to be kinda addicted to 'shoot' me out of the blue, passing crude remarks across the class, coming that my butt look digusting in my shorts.

(HELLO! I am quite proud of my butt ok! It is the fairest part of my body. Neither is it flat, saggy, black or what. It is just average, full and firm. The only problem that lies with it is that I've stretchmarks from the back from my waist, till the side of my butt, till my thighs.)

So ya, one fine day while I just enter the class, waiting for lecture to start, she suddenly shout across the class again. "Can you dont wear shorts to school? I saw your butt, its very disgusting and its black!" <- That's very insulting!

I was like totally stunned. Dont know how to react etc. So ya, as usual, I joke and divert attentions, by then my face is already as black as bao jin tian.

1. If I really zhaogeng, not everyone see it. You dont have to shout across the class to make sure that everyone hear it.
2. There is a male lecturer in the class.
3. I am sure that my butt is not black because right after that incident, I dragged Ruiyi to toilet with me and flashed my butt to her and ask her to check for me.
4. My stretchmarks are still white in colour, hasnt darken or what.

PS: You make me sounds like some black woman who never wash backside or what. BUT sorry to tell you that my butt is the fairest part of my whole body. If my butt is black, wouldnt it be obvious when I wear my bikini bottom out at sentosa?

To worsen the whole situation, she even say that 'do you need me to take photo and show you that your butt is black?' I rejected it with a smile.
(- If we are in a chalet or what with no guys around, I would probably squeeze your face into my butt and allow you to slowly appreciate the fair buttock.)

THEN!

This morning, I arrived the class late and was trying ignore her, but she called out my name and started mocking at me. Saying things like, 'Eh today wear 2 shorts ah?' Hello, I was planning to train my 2.4km today (obviously in my sport attire), I need to spread my legs to stretch, you thought I am so stupid to flash my pussy to the whole world when I am stretching? No right?

OK I IGNORED WHAT SHE SAID AGAIN WHILE RUIYI WAS LIKE STARING AT ME WITH THAT 'OH GOSH, SHE IS ANGRY' LOOK. Even idiots can see that I AM ALREADY SUPER ANGRY, but I dont see the reason why she cannot get the message across.

THEN AFTER CLASS

She approach me again and mock at my double layer shorts. Worst still, when I ignored, she say things like, "Aiyo, dont wanna reply me ah?" Then, her friends asked her to go. Seriously, just one more sentence out from her i will stand up and slap her hard! You should thanks you friends for asking you to go.

OH YA, I forgot to add on something. The most annoying part apart from her pervertic comments, it's the way she giggles which add on to my anger.

So you like to pass crude and hurtful remarks on me right? Wait till next class and I will let you feel it!

Look at the reflection of your butt before you comment about mine!

有的玩笑，开一次就好了。开太多次就不好笑了，只会惹人讨厌。开太多次还不要紧，故意开在这么多人面前，什么意思？！这关系别人的面子和自尊！还是你要等我开口射你时，你才会了解？请你停止你那变态又让人感到贰心，尴尬的评语！

Its all about LOVE

2010-07-17T00:57:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, I am quite envy of attached couples because they have someone there for them. The sweet feelings is damn good. BUT at this point of time, I actually felt quite lucky that I am single now. Yes, I missed out all those sweet moments, but at least, I dont have to go through the 'heart wrecking' period anymore. No more waking up in tears. No more checking of phone when I wake up. No more having the feeling of running @ full speed and give someone a hard punch on his/her face when things happened. No more crying, no more squeezing out of time to meet each other.

I guess now is a heart wrecking period for most of my friends and people out there.
I just wanna tell these people, "Hey this feeling will be over soon. Be strong." (no hidden meaning)

Talking about this, ..... (start with my grandmother story again)

I used to tell myself this (we will break up very soon), or should I say all the time though I thought that the relationship is quite stable I dont wish for a breakup. (Who would want a breakup straight after they got together?)

BUT what I thought will always come true. All my relationships ended very soon. Oh ya, and did I ever mentioned before that my longest relationship was only 1 month 4 days? HAHAS how pathetic. Worst still, it's like puppy love. That was when I was in secondary 2. Erm well, I can only say that the last 3 relationships of mine was a serious one (to me), but all ended even faster and sudden than I excepted it to be.

AND yea, I was quite happy that as I grow older, I learnt how to pick and choose, to be stronger and be serious though I am blinded 6 out of 7 times. When I spotted something which I dont like in this guy, I will stay away from him, or should I say lost interest in him? Maybe because I have short attention span or what ba.. I simply cant stand guys who are calculative towards my friends (to me is ok) or guys who are always busy with work, studies and other matters but not me. I need attention at times too. So ya, when I feel this way, I will automatically stay away from these people. Remember? I am a nun. LOLS..

Anyway, I am a weird person, so ya.. Should I say only certain guys will 'see' me? And these group of guys are like almost extinct.

Concentrating on my studies now is the most important thing because I wanted to 'roll' into local universities so badly. Oh god, please! I need a place in any of the local universities!

Fun Xmas eve years back

2010-07-14T22:01:00.003+08:00

Just a random update here.

I just recalled something mean which I've did years back. Hmmm I think 2-3 years back, I was sort of celebrating Christmas eve with girlfriends at a pub in Orchard then there was these 2 guys who approached us. I learnt that they wanted to make friend with us, buy us drinks and get my number, so I thought that it would be fun to have a bit of entertainment out of them. Didnt accept any drink from them, but told them that I will only give them my number after 3 rounds of truth or dare. They agreed and I dragged Hongfang along with me. I clearly remembered that 1 of the dare for them was to act like gay and lick each other asshole (with clothes on) in the public, and they really did. HAHAHAS! After the 3 rounds of truth or dare, we left and I actually gave them my friend's mum number which is like only 1 digit different from mine. After giving them 'the number', I quickly left with girlfriends. That summed up my Christmas eve few years back!

I wonder this year Christmas eve where will I be and what will I be doing? Hopefully a fun Xmas eve!

Anyway here's something interesting to share with you guys. I bet you guys will love this video! Do comment ya. =)

On a side note, I am damn excited. I am going to GIANT with joanne tomorrow evening to get all the ingredients that I need for Saturday afternoon. Yes, I am whipping up japanese cuisine for girlfriends on this coming saturday. We will have Japanese cuisine, white wine and mahjong. HAHAHAS sounds weird right? Japanese cuisine + white wine + MJ = Jap + Angmoh + Chi

HAHAHAS I feel like a little chef now!

Peek tures~

2010-07-13T10:47:00.007+08:00

Ok, photos uploaded.
Durian with Linda and co.

Sakura with my class boys, Kairen, Yelin and Kwok yong.

Reddy backside's birthday. Ok, he has a really sweet girlfriend who organised this surprise birthday celebration for him. Awww envy~

Night cycling to ECP carpark H and I got chased by a black car. LOLS damn funny lars. I u turn, the car also, and when I cycle out of the carpark, the driver drive back to the lot where it parked previously and continue with their business.

With my dearest girlfriend, Meijuan.MJ's cosy subaru

The 2 most important girls in my life.

-

2010-07-12T00:17:00.002+08:00

I woke up from a nightmare for a few nights.

The departure scene.
The backview.
The door closed.
The tears roll down.
In the public.
My mind was blank.
Stunned.
Scare.
Alone.
I was praying hard that you will turn back, but you didnt.
That cold expression.

I dont know what's wrong with me. Why does this come back to me again after years? What triggers it off? The images just keep flashing in my mind non stop. Breathless. Wanted to know what's going on so badly.