Morning-mare

It's like 7:30am now.

I had a nightmare yesterday morning, or should I say morning-mare? It's a fucking weird dream, yet realistic. I dreamt of my afterlife that I was poisoned to death by my own family member and only Joanne, Linda, Ah pok and my mother could see me. I tried contacting them and asked their to help me up with a few things to fulfill my last wish. Trust me, the feeling is extremely bad of having so many things unsaid, so many regrets, and so many people whom I wanted to meet again. I was crying out my heart, telling girlfriends to ask whoever to come for my funeral as I wanted to meet them for the last time. Giving my facebook passwords to Joanne, telling them that I still wanna play facebook after I died, giving them 4D numbers etc. The funniest yet realistic part is that I burst into tears, telling girlfriends that I havent get married then die. =( I was damn upset about it, but after awhile I told them that I dont even dare to dream about it now as I am dead. Blar blar blar, and not forgetting of putting all my dumbo elephants and old small pillow into the coffin with me.

Though it might sounds rather weird, but let put it this way. What if you can witness what happen after your death e.g. funeral? It will be really sad no matter what. When you see all your close friends coming to your funeral, talking to you, I am sure you will cry. Even when you see those cb people coming to your funeral just to gamble and ignore you totally, you will also get upset.

If I happens to meet an accident one day, please

help me to put all my dumbo elephants and old small pillow in my coffin

help me to contact all my friends and ask that to go for my funeral so that I can see them for the last time.

burn me loads of hell notes, clothes, house, and also a lap top with facebook printscreen on it.

dress me up in wedding dress if I will to die before I even marry.

girlfriends help me out with my makeup because I wanna look beautiful when I die.

powerpoint slides with all my pictures with friends.

buy me all my favourite vegetarian food

dont come to my funeral just to gamble and eat free curry chicken, very disrespectful. I will make you lose all the way.

please talk and gossip to me when you are watching the night.

please write me birthday card every year because I will be upset if my friends will to forget about me totally.

just in case we can still see what happens after we die. Though it is not scientifically proven, but I am a very "Pan-tang" person. I know it sounds weird and crazy, but we will never know what will happen to us when we die. Nobody knows.

and please DO NOT hire all those noisy taoist priests because I find them very noisy and I presume that I wouldnt be able to rest in peace. Get those chant abit one will do, and play some nice background music.

LOLS quite demanding huh? BUT it's better to leave this message to my girlfriends first and have less regrets if I will to die one day.

From my point of view, the moment before death is not the scariest part, but after you die, having so much left unsaid. (Provided that supernatural thingy like souls etc exist.) Well, different people have different say for this.